As Leader

Last FRI I had dinner with Pastor Helen. Apart from some update on how I'm doing, how Wesley's doing, how CCF is doing, etc., she talked about future cell group arrangement and asked for my input/ feedback as to have a new group with some other 『marketplace』 sisters and to be cell group leader.

I had no problem at all to have a cell group with other marketplace sisters – actually I felt rather strongly for such a suggestion. However when talking about being the group leader, there was some very strong opposing feeling in my heart.

I knew something was wrong. I knew the Holy Spirity has rung a bell there – why did you react so strongly to such an idea? There must be something wrong.

My Lord has revealed something to me. First He let me see fear. Fear in my heart. Actually I have discovered so much fear in my heart since I started the Cleansing Stream course that I think I've seen more fear in my self in this past two months than the previous 30 years combined. But yes, there it is, fear.

It is fear of several things that I've seen. Fear to take up responsibility. Fear to take lead. Fear to be recognized as a leader.

The first one is rather easy to understand – fear to take up responsibility. It's quite an earthly thing.

But why would I fear to take lead or be seen as a leader? Why? Not only in SIC but even in CCF, though I am already taking such important role in shaping the future direction for the fellowship, I still didn't feel comfortable when someone else called me the 『leader』 of the group.

Why?

Do I not feel that it's what God has called me to do? I think I feel quite strongly those directions for CCF are what God told us to go for. Do I feel that God has only given me the direction but has not explicitly told me to be leader of the group? ... may be. But it's so obvious that he has blessed me with such related gifts. Then why do I feel so uncomfortable?

It's the same thing for the cell group as Helen suggested. I actually don't mind doing work as what a cell group leader is supposed to do. But I just feel extremely uncomfortable when I should be called or recognized as such.

Why?

Is it because of the monster of pride that I fear hidden in my heart? Or actually I feel that I don't deserve to be a leader in God's kingdom? That I feel I'm no better than any one else so how can I be a leader? How can I lead others?

Well, but may be that's the point that goes wrong – who said that a leader needs to be 『better』 than others? Certainly, it's just one of the roles in God's plan, right? And if I truly believe that in God's plan there is a unique role for every body and they are equally good and equally valued in God's eyes, why does it matter that I'm a leader or not? We just be who we are and do what God told us to do at whichever time and place He sets us out to do.

Yes, I think I fear of this temptation too much, i.e. To think myself be better or smarter than someone else. So this fear becomes a bondage to me too.

Lord, please help me. I place this lie and bondage into your good hands. Please help me to break away from it and give me freedom in you, so I can be free to serve you the way you want me to be. Lord, so I can be free to do whatever you have set out me to do. Lord, I have decided to give this to you so you can clean up this place in my heart so we can regain this land from the evil one in my life.

Lord, thank you. I know you will do this because you have said so in the bible.

Thank you Lord. Thank you.

Book of 2 Timothy

The Lord has led me to read this book today, and talked to me thru a number of verses. I feel like it's not Paul talking to Timothy, but rather the Lord talking to me in the same way.

2Ti 1:2 寫信給我親愛的兒子提摩太。願恩惠、憐憫、平安從父神和我們主基督耶穌歸與你！
Yes, the promise from my Lord to give me grace and mercy and peace! Thanks so much Lord!

2Ti 1:6 為此我提醒你，使你將神藉我按手所給你的恩賜再如火再挑旺起來。
再 – again. Feel so strongly that Lord is to revive us, to get us burning for him again!

2Ti 1:7 因為神賜給我們，不是膽怯的心(靈)，乃是剛強、仁愛、謹守的心。
Oh and this is such a great verse. I repeated it again and again and again. For in it I see how it is NOT so that the fear in me is from our Lord. Rather, such 膽怯的靈 is actually from the evil one! What the Lord has given me is just the good things: power, love, and self-control. Yes Yes Yes! He has given me not the spirit of fear but the spirit of power and love and self-control.

2Ti 1:9 神救了我們，以聖召召我們，不是按我們的行為，乃是按他的旨意和恩典
Yes! It's not because of what I do or what I've done. It's just the grace from God. It's just in His plan. There is NOTHING I can do to qualify me for His gift. I can only accept and say thank you. So no more hidden trying to do good/ perform/ earn his approval thing. Nothing of that sort can do.

2Ti 2:2 你在許多見證人面前聽見我所教訓的，也要交託那忠心能教導別人的人。
Will I be that? 『那忠心能教導別人的人』?

2Ti 2:14 你要使眾人回想這些事，在主面前囑咐他們：不可為言語爭辯；這是沒有益處的，只能敗壞聽見的人。
2Ti 2:15 你當竭力在神面前得蒙喜悅，作無愧的工人，按著正意分解真理的道。
2Ti 2:16 但要遠避世俗的虛談，因為這等人必進到更不敬虔的地步。
What to do? 在神面前得蒙喜悅, 作無愧的工人，按著正意分解真理的道。
What not to do? 不可為言語爭辯, 遠避世俗的虛談

2Ti 2:20 在大戶人家，不但有金器銀器，也有木器瓦器；有作為貴重的，有作為卑賤的。
2Ti 2:21 人若自潔，脫離卑賤的事，就必作貴重的器皿，成為聖潔，合乎主用，預備行各樣的善事。
Need to be sanctified, be sacred, 成為聖潔，合乎主用

2Ti 2:24 然而主的僕人不可爭競，只要溫溫和和的待眾人，善於教導，存心忍耐，
2Ti 2:25 用溫柔勸戒那抵擋的人；或者神給他們悔改的心，可以明白真道，
2Ti 2:26 叫他們這已經被魔鬼任意擄去的，可以醒悟，脫離他的網羅。
No argument. Be gentle at all time. Argue will not win back their souls, and it's not up to us to decide. But when we remain gentle, and to correct others only gently, then our Lord may give them a repenting heart so they can understand the truth and be awakened and return to our Lord. We just need to remember to be gentle!

2Ti 3:12 不但如此，凡立志在基督耶穌裡敬虔度日的也都要受逼迫。
Won't be easy ah...

2Ti 4:2 務要傳道，無論得時不得時，總要專心；並用百般的忍耐，各樣的教訓，責備人、警戒人、勸勉人。
In new version it's translated a little bit differently: 務要傳道，無論得時不得時, 『總要隨時作好準備』. So this is what I need to do, to be prepared, WELL PREPARED, to spread the gospel, at all times.

2Ti 4:5 你卻要凡事謹慎，忍受苦難，作傳道的工夫，盡你的職分。
What I/ we need to do...

2Ti 4:8 從此以後，有公義的冠冕為我存留，就是按著公義審判的主到了那日要賜給我的；不但賜給我，也賜給凡愛慕他顯現的人。
A promise from our Lord, to us all!

2Ti 4:18 願榮耀歸給他，直到永永遠遠。阿們。
2Ti 4:22 願主與你的靈同在。願恩惠常與你們同在！
Amen!

Wesley

Lord, and let me be a praying wife, for I know you have given me 權柄 to pray for and to bless my husband. Lord, I pray to you for Wesley. For him to take up this post you have assigned him, to be the head of our household. Lord, for when he takes this up your blessings will be pured out to us, to our family, and to many. Lord, guide his steps and lead his way. Lord, so that when he becomes the head of the household he always follow your way. So that you truly become the Lord of our house. Lord, for you are his lord and you are my lord. Lord, give Wesley a pure heart which only longs for you. Guide his way and protect his steps. Lord, give him power and honour as he walks in your path, according to your will. Lord, you said that your word will not come accomplishing nothing. Your word is the truth and always accomplish what you set out to do. So Lord, I raise up Wesley in my prayer Lord so your good work can be completed in him. So your good work can be completed in him.

Lord, please continue to lead his way so he will continue to grow in you and to mature in you. So when he lead the family our whole family will continue to mature in you and grow more like you, also. Lord, give him a heart that always long for you and you alone.

Lord, you'll use Wesley and our family. Lord, let us do great things for you, Lord. Whatever way you plan for us to do. Just let us serve you, Lord, in big or small way. Whatever that fits your plan, let us do so. Let us be pleasing to our Lord, by following what you reveal to us to do obediently.

Lord, thank you. For you bless him i.e. To bless our whole family. Thank you Lord.

ah sui

Lord, and yes I wanna pray for ah sui, too. Lord, you have used him so much. You love this child, a lot. Lord, this is amazing thing, very big thing that you have ask this child to do. But you will continue to lead his way and guide his way.

Lord, I pray to you for sui's protection. For he is at such forefront in the battlefield, Lord I particularly pray for his protection in you. Lord, cover him fully in the spiritual armor that you have given to us: with your truth as his belt, with your salvation as his helmet, with the shield of faith, and breastplates of righteousness, with the gospel of peace as shoes for his feet, and the sword of the spirit which is the word of God.

Lord, let him be protected at all times with your full armor. So that he can defeat any temptations from the evil one, so that he can detect and defeat any schemes from the devil, so that not only he can defend but can also fight for you for your kingdom Lord, to regain lost ground to win back lost souls. Lord, protect him so that as he battles for you, he will be fully covered and protected in your precious blood so that he won't get hurt along the way, so that at the end of the battle he can still stand firm in you. Lord, surround him with your angels, protect him under your wings. As he sets out to battle for you Lord, your right hand be with him to defeat the enemy, you open doors for him and smooth out his path. You guide his way so he won't go astray. You send angels to protect him so he won't fall over along the way. Lord, guide him, protect his steps and keep him close to you so he will lead your army in the right way to you and you alone. Let your truth shine on him, always. Let no darkness take any place in his heart or in his life. Let there be no place left for the evil one in his life for in your light, there is no darkness. Let your light light up his whole life, his whole self. As he sacrifice his whole life for you, Lord, you'll give him the crown of honour. Lord, and you have much much more richness in life, that otherwise we can never imagine in our life. Because he prepares to give up his life for you, so you'll give him much more than what he could otherwise hope for. For you are the TRUTH, the LIGHT , and the LIFE.

Yes Lord, continue to protect him and keep him under your wings. And I thank you, lord, for preparing so rich and wonderful a life for him. For such wonderful promises you have offered and you will honour for this child. For he is your beloved son. For you love him, a lot. For he is dear to your heart. Lord, I thank you for him. Lord, I thank you for sui. May your blessings continue to pur out onto him for whichever way he goes, you will be with him and your blessings are so many that his house or his life won't be enough to hold. Lord, thank you, thank you. Thank you for your love for him. Thank you for your blessings for him and how they will overflow to others, to may others. So that many, many can feel your love and be regained, to you. Lord, thank you.

ah Keung

Lord, and thank you for giving me such strong 感動 especially to pray for ah Keung. Lord, you really, really love him. You really really love him. You love him so very much exactly because he has been thru so much ups and downs in his life. Exactly because he has once fallen so far away from you, so you love him even more so as to mend those broken parst in him. Exactly because he felt so much hurt from church before, so Lord you wanna love him more to heal those parts. Lord, oh Lord, you love him so, you love him so. And you are all ready and all prepared to heal him, to give him a brand new heart, to wash him off all bitterness. Lord, you have prepared a new life for him. Yes once and for all you have prepared a new life for us to put on, and on going you will just keep cleansing us for we continue to get dirt from this world. Lord, you'll just keep cleansing us, keep cleansing us so we can all be holy in you.

Lord, and you have already prepared all these for ah keung. Lord, not only that you'll cleanse him and heal him and you're going to raise him and use him, and use him big! Lord, you have great plan for him. It's only up to him now to choose to let go of his past and to step into your cleansing stream to get cleansed and to get the blessings and power you have prepared for him. For you have great plan prepared for him, for you have great things for him to do. Let go of all the bitterness. Let go of all the unworthiness. Let go of how he sees himself from himself but he needs to see himself thru your eyes Lord! He needs to see himself in glory and worthiness and in power and in love in You, Lord! In you he's good and perfect! Oh Lord please please please show this to ah Keung, so he can see how worthy he is in your eyes. How he is the apple in your eye i.e. 眼中的瞳仁 i.e. Your favourite beloved son. Yes Lord you said, we are no longer servant no longer 奴僕, but in Christ we are your sons and daughters, in Christ we 同作後嗣. Lord, let ah keung be cleansed in you, once again. Let him see his true self in you.

Lord, Jesus, in your name I renounce all those lies that the evil one has placed in ah Keung's mind and heart. Lord Jesus, in your name I order all these lies be removed but only your truth to fill ah Keung's mind and heart. Open his eyes so he can see it clearly, how glorious he is in your eyes, in your kingdom, and how powerful he is for he is to do great thing for you Lord. For he is to do great thing for you. Lord, open his eyes as you said, you came to set the captive free and you came so that the blind can see. Lord, set him free and let him see. Lord, ob Lord. You love him so. Let him know, lord, let him know. Let him know. Fill his heart with your love Lord. Open his eyes so he sees himself as from your eyes. Remove the lies that blind him. Lord.

I really feel that Holy Spirit is very strong in my heart, urging me to pray for ah Keung. I know this is what our dearest heavenly father has in His heart for him. I can really feel his aching love for him. I still feel this strong need to intercede for ah keung, to really cry out for him, to pray very very hard for him. For him to be set free for him to see the truth, the love, and the glory and power.

Lord I know this is what you have prepared for him. This is what in your heart for him, and I thank you for this, Lord. Thank you for the aching love you have for him. The emotion is so strong, my Lord. You love him so so so very much.

As Wesley's Assistant

Another thing Lord has revealed to me that I need to repent and pray about, is for me to be Wesley's assistant.

Yes we have been always saying how Wesley is the head of the household and the head for me. But I don't think I have taken this thought deep deep down into myself and to honour Wesley as such.

My Lord has revealed it to me. Thru the prayer from the sisters yesterday during our Sunday school, and also this morning. Yes I may be more outspoken and talk more, but still, Wesley is the head and the leader. Just like Aaron to assist Moses, I am to assist Wesley in whatever God has assigned us to do.

It's so great. Thank you Lord, thanks for revealing this truth to me. Although I still don't know how it will work, I pray to you that I will obey and pray to you to reveal your will to both of us. Lord, what I have felt for so far is the ministry at marketplace, while Wesley feels very strongly the role you have given him in the family, as the head. And also how important family is in your kingdom.

Lord, I don't know how these two areas be connected, but I know you know and it's all in your hand. Lord, please let us know when it's the good timing. Lord, let us know how we can serve you together, as one body. Lord, let me truly be submissive to Wesley and be supportive as THE assistant you have prepared for him. Let me assist him in our family. Let me assist him in whatever way or task you will send him. Lord, let me find that particular position in your kingdom that is to be his “rib”.

Lord, in you are wonderful wonderful plans for us. Please reveal to us where that right spot is for us in your plan, together, as one body.

Lord, help me to have a submissive and obedient heart. So that I will truly respond to Wesley so – no more “gi-li-gu-lu” at the back or in my heart. No more disagreement deep down. But all things, for all things, as He leads me and the family in your way, let me be submissive and supportive. Lord, and when there is doubt, let me pray and pray and pray for him so that he will remain in your way. So that he can lead the whole family in the right way in you. Lord, you are the God for our family. You are the head of our head. Lord, in you I put our whole family, in you I put Wesley. Thank you Lord. Thank you.

Lord, thank you so much. I feel your spirit so strongly, that you do appreciate this prayer. That you'll have lots and lots of blessings for us for the family as I choose to obey to you to see my role clearly as Wesley's assistant and to be submissive to whichever way you show me. Lord, yes it opens the door for your blessings, to me, but not just to me, but also to Wesley, our family, but also to many others, many others. And you said it's the way it should be! That the man to be the head of the family. It is THE WAY it SHOULD BE from the first place! Yes, it's just going back to your order, Lord. The order that you've set long, long time ago.

Going back, to continue to pray for what God wants us to do in this area, how we can work for Him in this area, how we can be others' blessings. To continue to pray, to pray for young couples around us, to pray for new families around us. To pray for Joe and Pauline, to pray for shun and cecil. To continue to pray to our Lord for a clear way on what we need to do for these people. For what His will is for us to do. In the mean time, continue to pray and pray and pray for them.

To share with them: how two people love in our Lord? How to be husband and wife in our Lord? How to have Jesus as the Lord of our family? How to have the husband as the head? How a man should shoulder that responsibility? How the wife to be submissive and supportive to him? How to be one body in Him? What's so special of becoing husband and wife in our Lord?

Yes Lord, you have put this 感動 in my heart too. Family. Family in you. Family.

Thank you Lord. When we obey and get quiet in front of you, you will definitely reveal your will to us. Family. Thank you Lord.

How to do? What to do? Lord, we'll pray about it. Pray more about it so we can understand. Please reveal your will to us. So we can follow. Lord, we'll pray more and we'll pray more about it.

Esther

The room I was assigned in Bethany is “Esther”.

Esther is a special biblical character to me. To me, she represents God's special plan for me in the marketplace. Esther was placed in a special position, as Queen of that large kingdom, to do great work for our Lord. To me, once again today, seems that God is telling me that He has indeed placed me at a special position to do great work for him. And just like Esther, I need to make up my mind, to follow our Lord and do what I ought to do.

What is it that I need to do for our Lord at my position in CX? I don't have a clear answer at this point. I think, it may be related to what sui has been challenging me to think about. Whether I am now fallen back to the area A/ area B thinking mode?

What I do believe:

That all the work I do, I do them with a heart to serve my Lord. So I do it wholeheartedly, wish it work, treat it as a task my Lord has entrusted me to do.

I believe my Lord's way is the BEST way. That no matter what I do, I need to do it in His way, following His teaching, the principals that He has taught us to follow. It not only affects me, but it also affects others: for in us they see how we live out a life that representing Christ. If we swing, we lost our witness and it becomes the stumbling blocks for others to follow Christ. And that'd be v bad. (a side story with Brian on R7s tkt distribution...need to write it down before I forget!)

Having said the above, would ALL the things that I do with an explicit causal relationship to God's great plan? At this point in time, I don't think so. e.g. For Rugby 7s – can it be linked to God's great plan? Or the 60th roadshow, can it be? Well actually, thinking about it more, may be it's not the case that “there cannot be”. Rather, I haven't really tried to think that way, or prayed that way, or I feel that I didn't know how to do it that way.

I'm sure that if it's on myself alone I won't be able to do it that way! With myself alone I couldn't even finished a brief from the earthly sense. But if Lord can give me wisdom to finish an earthly brief as I pray for it, God can certainly reveal His will to me to do things on earth in CX but also be part of His great plan, isn't it?

Lord, I still don't know how to do it. But you know! And you can! Lord, I pray to you that I don't just see task at hand from the earthly sense but also see them with my spiritual eyes opened. Lord, for whatever will you have for such plans, please enlighten me and reveal your will to me. Lord,Jesse said your will is simple and shouldn't be tough for us to do. I think there is moment it applies and moment it doesn't apply, istn't it? Lord, I do believe that in no matter which case, you won't need us to do things in the dark or tell lies in order to do “your” thing – it just violates your nature! But I do think that, Lord, sometime what you ask us to do may not be easy things. Sometime there may still be tough way we need to go thru and tough decision we need to make along the way. We need to be clear and determined to follow your way, all through. Lord, I have determined to do so. Lord, I wanna follow you, I wanna be obedient to you. Lord, if there is anything in my life that's hindering me to hear you clearly to hinder me from getting closer to you, please reveal them to me, and help me repent and renounce them, so I can once again be restored in you. Lord, I fthere is anything blinding me, please help me to get rid of them so I can see you, clearly. So I can then obey you and continue to walk in your way, walk in your path.

Lord, I still don't know what I can do for you at work as in my MKT position. But I give this to you. I give this to you, Lord. I give this to you so you can tell me what it is and what it isn't. Instead of me juding. Lord, because you are my Lord. You are Lord of my whole life, you are Lord of my job of my work also. Lord, Let me be your Esther. Let me be an obedient Esther – not the one in the first round thinking only of her own self and the dangers ahead. Lord, let me be the Esther that finally emerged in the book – an Esther who does not look at the negative side of things, the Esther who sees that Lord you are in control of all things, an Esther who sees the positive, the can do, an Esther who will do what you have asked her to, an Esther who does not care for her own safety or own benefit, but only looks at you and you alone. And as Esther believes in you, you will provide me as you provide her with flavor, with wisdom, with method and tactics and success so your will can be done. Lord, let me be your Esther. Let me be a useful tool for your use. Let me be part of your great plan. Thank you Lord.

Retreat Day in Bethany

In beginning of the year I made this promise to our Lord that each month of the year, I will take one day leave and spend time just with Him. - Actually, I don't think I have really “made” this promise earlier. I was so hesitant. I just said sth like “I'd try to do it”, without any commitment, fearing that I could not do it and failing our Lord. But then, if I have never made up my mind, how could it come true? The first step for it to really happen is for me to make up my mind first. So here I am, and I have firmly decided to make this promise to our Lord and that with His help, I'd be able to do it.

And if I can be here today, I think it's a pretty good sign of determination that I wanna continue to do it! Because the Rugby 7s is coming up this weekend and actually there are still quite a bit of work to do – frankly I am quite nervous and I know the fleshly/ earthly side of me would much prefer to sit in the office, deep inside of me I know I need to get away and get myself cleansed in our Lord. And really, what I need to do better for future months is just better planning and to set a day well in advance so me and the team can prepare accordingly!

Any how, here I am in Bethany on Cheung Chau Island. The first 2 quiet days of the year I spent at home, but this time, I really want to have a “real” quiet time with our Lord. And I don't wanna get tempted by all the work stuff or internet stuff or TV stuff or any other stuff at home. So I went away to Bethany, a retreat place for missionaries, church workers or Christians alike, on Cheung Chau.

It's a really nice place – cosy, quiet, warm, welcoming, close to the nature. It reminds me of the home I grew up with in Ku Tung, Sheung Shui, with mosquito net etc, and also the swings in playground. I really like that old home. And the air is so much better here I haven't sneezed at all.

This is the first time I come to Berthany. And God is really nice – He sent me Tes and Paul when I was finding my way up last night. So Paul accompanied me up. Otherwise it could be quite tough for me, especially in the dark!

I think I haven't done too much here, but slept really well and try to relax and enjoy my time with our Lord. It's luxurious to sleep for over 10 hours! Though I slept a lot and it's only a short stay I have here, there are precious things that God has told me and that I pray about and I do wanna remember. They'll be in subsequent posts of today.

Weekly Prayer (11)

This week I am not doing too well - instead of going away to pray during lunch time on Tue, I stayed at my desk to work. So sorry, Lord, I "airplaned" you again, skipping our appointment! I felt bad. But then, Lord, you know my weaknesses and I thank you for forgiving me, as always, and to cleanse away my sins as soon as I turn to you and confess to you. Thank you Lord. And I know you are helping me to do away with these not so ideal qualities in my life so I can be closer and closer to you. Thank you Lord.

Lord, may I first pray for SIC. Lots of things happening and lots of things developing. Lord, thanks for the long chat with Pastor Helen last night. It's great to be able to share with her what's happening in my life and in CCF.

Lord, and thanks for opening up the door for a new group for me. I heard you, there's something about leadership thing in my heart, in my life that I need to deal with. And I know you will reveal it to me and help me out as well. Thank you Lord. There is so many things you fill my hearts with - I wonder if just one quiet day on Monday is enough!

And Lord I also thank you for the Cleansing Stream seminar. The more I go into it the more I feel your work thru it. It's really wonderful. And it's great to hear from Helen that even more wonderful things are to be done during the day camp. Also, not just me but many brothers and sisters' lives are being "cleansed" during the course as well. Lord, really see that you are using this tool to revive and release many. Thanks so much. Please I pray to you let SIC be one part of your body be revived and lighted up so we'll be a church burning with passion for you, to fulfill our role in your kingdom. Not just one or two or a few of us but the whole church!

Lord, please guide us. Please give Pastor Mok, Pastor Helen, Pastor John, Pastor Wong wisdom and protection, vision and mission. Lord, be their leader so they can lead us following you. Shepherd them so they can shepherd to us all. But of course, my Lord, the great thing about you have come sacrificed for us is that now each of us can come to you direct! Lord, you are our God and our Shepherd and our Comforter.

Lord, I would also like to pray for CCF. Yes it's "something", as sui puts it. Lord, I thank you for pouring out so many blessings to CX over the years. It's really quite something to have a fellowship within the company for over some 15 years! Lord, this is your grace. And I also pray to you for all those brothers and sisters who came before us, for they have laid down the spiritual foundation here in CX, so that we can continue to expand your kingdom here in this company, in the marketplace.

My Lord, please continue to lead us and guide us for the way forward. I believe there is even more that is to happen. Lord, yes, your kingdom should come to CX, not in a distant future but something that we need to respond to, now.

Lord, for CCF specifically I pray for all the core team members, including myself. Lord, please let us fill with your Holy Spirit. Protect our hearts so they remain pure and clean so we can hear your voice. Let us remain obedient so when we hear you, we'll respond and obey you asap. Lord, let us not do things "human" way or "earthly" way or "fleshly" way or "our own" way. Lord, we may have different views and different opinion at times, but please let us be all UNITED in you, to fix our eyes on YOU, and to follow you relentlessly. Lord, guide our steps and lead our way, so that CCF will be going to the direction you want us to go, instead of going astray.

Lord, I also pray to you for the new program/ new structure and the vision shared. Lord, I don't know how the whole group felt as they were so quiet on Thursday. And even myself didn't feel too enlightened then - may be, it's a bit too much practical thing so we didn't feel your presence that much. Lord, please help us. It's not project plan or departmental meeting, it's something from YOU! It should be done in your way but not this world's way. Lord, we, and I, may have failed to do that or bring that msg out. Lord, I thus put this to you in prayer. Lord, yes I know. We go out and sow and work on the ground and water etc., but YOU are the one who makes plants grow. Lord, and sometime, often times, I don't farm that well. Teach me, Lord, please continue to teach me, and us. So we'll do better and better in you, closer to your heart than anything else on earth.

Lord, one last thing, is for the evangelical meeting on 6APR. Lord, I pray to you for smooth preparation for the meeting. And may I give praise again for the dedication of Frank - every time he invites his pastor and churchmates to come he has to take leave and drive them to CX City! Lord I thank you for the passion I see in his heart. It's so encouraging, Lord. It's so great to see you light up people's lives and hearts for you. The same is true for Susanna - one can really see her shine in you, enjoying your love and presence. Same for Lydia, too, of course. Lord, thanks so much. Thanks so much.

And I must confess, Lord, sometime this thought will come to my mind how my role was to light them up in CCF - that because of ME that they got lighted up again. Lord, please help me to guide my mind - the battlefield. Lord, I know that thought was not true because, if anyone's life is changed at all, of course it's because of YOU! Lord, only you can change people's lives, people's hearts. If I was used as the tool or as the tube along the way, I would be most happy because I could be of use in You. But no, it's not about me, it's just about You, my Lord. All glory is unto you, my Lord. Sometimes I might indeed agree to such thought, Lord. Please forgive me. And I renounce such thought - it is not true and by bringing it to you, Lord, you'll break it away from me so such thought will no longer have impact or influence on me. Lord, you'll restore me in you. Restore me so that I can just serve you with a pure heart, get cleansed, again.

Lord, and continue for the 6APR gathering, please also fill Stephen and Mori and their worship team with your Holy Spirit, so that when they come worship and share, all the audience can feel your presence there. Lord, let all the audience be touched by you. Lord, let them experience your TRUTH your LIGHT your LOVE, first hand. Lord, I pray to you to prepare the hearts of all those Christians in CX, so they will invite non-believer colleagues to come. Lord, I also pray to you for the hearts of all those non-believers, pray that their hearts will be softened and that they will come. And when they come, your Holy Spirit can work on them directly.

Lord, in particular I wanna pray for John Sieu, Anthony Yeung, Winnie Wong, Melody Keung, Manual Tsang, Susan Liao, Ian Shiu, Frank Yu. I would like to invite them to the function on the 6APR. Please prepare their hearts.

Lord, and may I pray for the fellowship that will take place today in Vision. Lord, you have a plan for Vision and popo. May your will be done. May your kingdom come. Lord, pray that your Holy Spirit will fill each of our hearts, so that when we get to know this group of young people, your love can flow thru us to reach them. Yes, Lord, the only reason that popo can come true and in fact for us to be able to popo, to love at all, is because of you. There is no unconditional love from the world or just from us. You are the only source and without you, there is no other way.

Lord, I pray for this group of young people. Lord, you have selected them and they have chosen to responds to you. Bless them, Lord. Pour out your blessings to them. Help them to hear you clearly. Help them to make the right decision in life - Lord, I know you'll never make decision for any of us, but please, when they seek you, let them find you. That's your promise in Bible and I know you'll make it come true. For this group of young people I pray.

Lord, thank you so much. Last but not least, please prepare both Wesley and me and in fact all other classmates of the Cleansing Stream course to prepare our hearts and our lives for the upcoming camp. Lord, in particular I pray for all those who have not yet finished their homework. Lord, pray to you that they can enjoy it, rather than seeing it as a task to complete. Let them encounter yourself when they do the homework. Let your spirit work in them. Lord, in particular I pray for Joyce, Irene, and Priscilla and also Winnie. So that God you will help them to set aside time to enjoy this homework time with you. Lord, I also pray to you for the whole group (Joyce, Lydia, Irene, Priscilla, Winnie, KY, myself) and also Wesley's group (Wesley, Lap bon, Calab, Kent, Anna's Wesley), and also all other brothers and sisters attending this course. Lord, protect us during this spiritual warfare time before we go to the camp. Let us be covered and protected by Jesus' precious blood so no attack or distraction from the evil one will prevail. Lord, let us put on your spiritual warfare outfit and win the battle, and still standing afterwards.

Thank you Lord. It's great to pray. It's great talking to you, always!

Lastly, please prepare my heart for the quiet day on Monday. This is the first time I went away from home to do it. Lord, and I've already got so many things from you that you wanna talk to me about ! It's great. I just so look forward to spend time with you, quietly, single-mindedly, just us. Lord, please prepare my heart because there are many random thoughts in my mind, recently, a symptom of stress and too many undone work. But Lord, in your hand I place all these. Give me wisdom to handle and to guide my mind so when I don't need to work on them, they won't come to my mind. And when I have quiet time with you, I can have my FULL self in you, wholeheartedly.

Once again thank you Lord. Thank you for you're a wonderful God. Only in you there's true joy and peace in life.

In name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.

Weekly Prayer (10)

Pray and Think first:

1. Helen
- bless ber
- find her place in you, Lord
- not to be distrated by other things thta you have not planned for her to do
- to be our leader, lead us to the right direction, lead us to you Lord

2. Alpha in CX
- your will or my will?
- got this msg from you several time: it's from You
- blessing
- prepare workers: I really need 同工 on this
- prepare the non believers: prepare their hearts to come an djoin

3. overall direction for SIC
- the role of SIC in your kingdom Lord, to pray, to worship, and missionary
- lord, help our pastors and leaders in our church to see it clearly and to stick with the vision you've given us.
- help SIC to really be what you have intended she to be

4. VIS/ VIC
- blesss and protect them, give them a clean and clear heart so they can hear you clearly.
- let no judgement or pride steal the way into their heart
- let there be love, unity, and 彼此順服 not only among the bros sis there but also with SIC too
- Lord, lead them and use them, for your army.

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Good morning my Lord.

It seemed to me didn't work too well - this new flow of prayer time in you. I think I'll revert to the format that we've been using, i.e. type everything down!

Lord, you are the one to be praised. You are the lord Almighty and you are worthy for all praise. For you are GREAT! For you are REALLY GREAT! It's only in your truth and in your light and in your love, that we find real life. That only in you it's possible to have such joy and peace in life. Lord, for that I thank you again. Because if it's not for your love to us and that Jesus has died for our sin, we could never enjoy this intimacy, this true life, in you. Thank you Lord.

Lord, today I especially fill for prayer for Helen, SIC, as well as the VIS/VIC team. Lord, there are so many things taking place. And I can see all those conflecting points. Lord, but I believe you are to do new things. Lord, you will do new things! And so I thing, though it's a bit tough and friction in the beginning, God you know everthing and if's already in your hand whether and how it will work and go forward. For that I thank you.

Lord, I pray for Helen so that she will continued be blessed by you. Lord, I pray to you that Helen is clear and stick with what you've put into her heart:L how she felt for prayer or intercession and how she is also tasked to 重修毀壞的祭壇 thru prayer and intercession. Lord, let her hold on to the vision you've given her tightly. Lord, let her see that for those tasks that she feels she needs to take care of or she has to do, but not necessarily related to the vision you showed her, let her know that you have already prepared and that they'll be taken care of accordingly, if and when she's ready to let you do it. Lord, let her hear you clearly so she can be our leader, to lead us closer and closer to you. Let the thoughts that're not from you depart from her, either from her flesh or the wicked one. Lord, fill her, fill her with your love, and fill her with your vision. so not only us in SIC will be blessed but also your whole kingdom.

Lord, associated iwth this is the prayer for the whole church and other pastors and leaders in our church. Lord, let us humble ourselves in front of you, to seek you and you alone. Lord, let SIC be what you have intended her to be. Lord, help us to hold tight to the vision you have given us - to be a church of prayer and intercession and worship and missionary.

Lord, I am not wise and I don't know the answer. On one hand I can see the importance of your truth in bible and the importance of teaching it or studying it - you know how truly I enjoy knowing your Word better! But then, I also don't know if the way it's now done in SIC is the right way for us or for the new joiners, or if it's the way you want. And I also don't know how wl the plan in VIS or from Keung or for the popo-ers will work out. Lord, I know I won't know so I pray to you. Lord, let that be your will but not my will. Lord, let your Kingdom comes and your Will be done. Lord, I pray to you to give each of us a humble and obedient heart, and open ears so we can hear you clearly. Lord, please guide us and show us and walk with us the path that you've set for us. As usualy, Lord, pls walk by us, step by step. Let there be no judgement or anger or pride or self-rightous. But to let us move on in love, and unity in you, and to humble ourselves and with obedience to you and to one another too.

Lord, Finally may I pray for the Alpha COurse for CX. Lord, I am once again puzzled because I think it should be a team work, instead of just me rushing along. But Lord, thanks for reminding me that indeed, indeed, you've told me several times already that it needs to take place, and, 莊稼熟了. Lord, and you've actually reassured me and with Mary and that we can and should start, even if some onthers didn't know or didn't decide to move on with it.

Lord, as such, I ask for your double and triple protection, leadership, and blesssing to this course. Lord, please give strength and wisdom to me and Mary as we start preparing for the course. Please send more workers to the field to collect your harvest. Lord, please also bless Eva so she can be part of it. And any other workers, Lord, that you've already asked them, please soften their hearts and let them see how big a blessing it can be for themselves, Lord you always give in this way. Lord, bring some more workers to us, especially male workers to lead the group.

Lord, please protect the preparation work going forward. The training. And the workers, and the hearts of potential joiners. Lord, please start your great work in their heart and attract them. Lord, let us continue to do 鬆土 work in others' life so that when the course starts, they'd be interested to join and to know more about you and ultimately, not only believe in you but also follow you as 門徒

Lord, thanks a lot. It's always, always so good to have such quiet time in you. Lord, I may not have the spiritual gift of intercession but let me still, put in my little bit. So I can be part of the team and the plan to lift up our bros and sis, to lift up our church, and to God your great plan in salvation to all. Lord, thanks for letting me join you in prayer.

In name of Jesus Christ I prayed. Amen.

Weekly Prayer (9)

Lord my dear Lord,

Thank you so much, my lord, for a great quiet time in you this morning. Lord, it's just sooooooooooo important to have good quiet time in you, Lord. I really really enjoy it.

My dear Holy Spirit, thanks for being here, thanks for being with me, and in my heart. It's so sweet to have you around. It's so great to fill your presence. Oh Holy Spirit, please continue to fill me and fill my day. Please continue to encourage me and protect my steps in you.

My Lord, you are so faithful and you always, always answer our prayer if we pray in faith. Lord, thank you. Thank you.

Lord, and it's such blessing from the Cleansing Stream course and material. Even by reading thru the material again this morning, I once again feel my spirit is lifted up and once again being brought close to you. It's just such good reminder on how we can continue to walk in the spirit, and to commit our lives fully to you.

1. APR 6
Lord, I pray to you for the evangelical event which CCF has planned for 6APR. Lord, please help lead us to make preparation and arrangement for it. Please guide our steps and our ways. Lord, please also anoint Stephen and Mori who will come speak that day. Lord, anoint them so they will speak with your wisdom, with your message, not to their will but to your will. Lord, please also encourage our brothers and sisters to bring new friends that day. Lord, please encourage us all to pray for the event. Please also prepare the hearts of those who will be invited. Lord, please prepare their hearts so they will say yes, keep their promise, and come with an open mind, and to accept Jesus Christ. Lord, in particular I would like to pray for my friends here, hope they can come on the day: Ian, Anthony, John, Winnie, Jimmy, Louise, Mimi, Elise, Helen, Anna, Manual, Tommy Kwok, Wilson Kwan, Sonia, Mellissa, Susan Liao, Caroline, Frank. Lord, I also pray for these brothers and sisters and hope that not only themselves would come, but also bringing others: May, Teresa, Brian, Michael, Eddie, Tommy Tham, Jeff, Louise, May, Eva. Lord, please anoint us all with your fire in spirit, so we are all geared up to serve you and spread the gospel.

2. CCF Sharing session
Lord, please help me to fight against the lazy heart and/or the passive heart. I have taken up the responsibility so I need to do it. Lord please give me strength and let me have good self discipline to do so, to serve you. Lord, please help me with my very bad habit. I think, I am actually confident that in you, I can win this battle! In you I can change and become a better person, closer to what JC would be when he was in town.

3. My job
Lord, I'd also like to pray for my job and the work involved. Especially the 60th stuff. Lord, I know you love me and you care for me and you provide for me. There will never be a task which you have entrusted to us is too big for us to do - you will give us the required ability accordingly! So Lord, may I come in front of you and ask for the wisdom and good ears, so I can hear you clearly and only to do those what you've asked me to do - and when I'm not doing that particular thing which you've asked about, I will be reminded by HS to follow your voice and to be obedient.

4. MKT
Overall protection for MKT, too, Lord. Please cover us all, all staff at CX MKT, plus CPLP, PR, and also ME team. every body is working very very hard recently, please protect us all in you. Lord, please bless the works done by CX MKT so that it will be blessings to people around. I pray for JB and Charlie and Celine, Lord, please bless them and give them guidance so CX as a whole can be pleasing to you.

5. Senior Management
The same for them too, my Lord. May I pray for PC, Tony, new chairman, other directors, and all the GMs. Lord, please give them wisdom and a submissive heart (think it's more difficult!). Let them see how important to have you in life - YOU ARE LIFE! Lord, I do hope that they can be blessed so that they'll believe in Christ and so they can start changing this company, this marketplace, this city, this world, as well.

6. Class tonight
Apart from CX I'd also like to pray for SIC. Lord, may we hold your name up high for our class at SIC tonight. Lord, please protect the foot steps of all team members and the 3 pastors, so we will all arrive safely, on time, and in good shape. Lord, please give wisdom to Pastor Mok so his teaching is not just "his" teaching on your words, but you, Lord, you indeed teach us thru him.

7. Alpha at CX
Forgot to pray about this one, Lord. Lord, pray to you that your will be done and what you plan to happen, will happen. Lord, please continue to lead the way on this, and how we may prepare for it. Please prepare the hearts of all of us who feel a burden for this course. Please also prepare the hearts of those potential members who'll sign up for the alpha course. Lord, you've shown us how wonderfully you have made use of this tool. Let us adjust our life in response to your calling to see this great blessing falls on to CX, too.

8. This Sunday worship
Lord, thank you for bringing Sherine and B and Yee and may be Cheung Lui as well to Sunday service at SIC this week. Lord, may you prepare their hearts accordingly. Lord, really, we come together to worship you, to sing praise to you, to give thanks to you. Lord, for there are tones and tones of wonderful things you've done in our lives. Lord, may my dear friends and sisters would experience that as well. Lord, may Yee believe in you soon. May those sisters who haven't found the "right church" for themselves find one soon, for you have desired us to get together as Christ's body in the church. We, alone, self reliant, is not what you have wanted us to do. Lord, give s wisdom to understand it also.

9. Groups in CCF
And it leads to another prayer for CCF, too. Lord, we'll start this semi-group structure soon. Lord, please lead us and guide our steps accordingly. Is it what you want us to do? Lord, is it the way to go? You have better idea than us all on how to further grow CCF or what we should do to match with your plan! Lord, please help us all in the core team be alert to your voice, be aware of your will - not our will but yours. Lord, help us to hear clearly so that we won't go astray.

10 Individuals
Lord may I pray for the following individuals, too.

Wesley - to protect him. Lord, so that he won't get lost in LOST! Lord, I've been long-winded enough and I think I've said all I ought to say already (may be too much, already). Lord, may I just come to you in prayer to protect him and Holy Spirit to remind him when it's really too much or if there's any danger, spiritually. Lord, please protect Wesley so he won't be tempted by "眼 目 的 情 慾 " but know that he really needs to love you first but not to love things from this world. But I know he'll be safe in you, Lord. Thank you. And please continue to bless his work and his hands so that all things he has done will be blessings to others.

Alice Lee - Lord, I don't know how things are going at her end. But please, Lord, help her to see the anger that's still in her. Please help her to see the bitterness that's still in her. Please help her to see the hurt that's still in her. Lord, please help her to see those and let go. Yes you have asked us to re conciliate before coming to your altar. Help her to do so, Lord. Yes it may hurt but you'll heal us. Please heal her, Lord. She's your beloved daughter and you want her back, deeply. Let her enjoy the freedom in you with just love, no more hatred or hurt or anger or bitterness.

Yuet Sheung - Lord, I know you'll heal her and you have already healed her a lot. Please continue to take her into your wings and your shield. Please heal her not only physically but deep down inside. There are great things you have planned for her to do, Lord. Let her see how precious and wonderful she is in your eyes.
Ah Shun & Cecilia - Lord, it's just wonderful! what can I say?! Your plan is just perfect. I pray to you that they will enjoy walking in you, TOGETHER, as much or even more so than what Wesley and I have enjoyed.

Thank you Lord. It's good to pray for others and it's good to have such prayer time in you. To give thanks and to sing praise to you.

Hallelujah to my Lord!

In name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.

Weekly Prayer (8 - part 2)

Dear Lord,

Here I am again - so sorry that I didn't completed the 1 hour prayer last Sat. I have only finished about 15 min when I was called out for lunch. Lord, sorry about that. I know there should be no excuse and that I do need to take this appointment with you seriously - not to "airplane", not to be missed, not to be late. Just like what I'd do with any friend or person that I treasure meeting. Lord, I will make better arrangement from now on. In you I have determined. Please help me to do so.

Lord, I so need you today! I know we need to walk in your spirit every day and every step. Just that some time, it feels more needed than other times.

Lord, I feel really stressed and nervous from work. My heart is trembling, my lord. Please help me! You are my Lord, you are my saviour. You are my 避難所, you are my 山寨． Lord, you are the one I depend on. I can come to you for help. You are the one I look up to. Lord, you are the one who comforts my heart.

My dear Holy Spirit. Please fill me. Please comfort my heart when it's in fear. Holy Spirit, please fill me. Please give me wisdom and guide my path as I am finding my way forward.

When looking into you I have strength. When looking and relying upon you I get peace and strength.

Lord, I put everything in your hand. Lord, I put the Rugby things in your hand and I put the 60th things in your hand. By me alone really cannot do, my Lord. Please help me. But with you in me I can do it - or you have prepared someone else to do it? Lord, just let me get quiet and get rest in front of you. Let me hear your voice and wait for you. You said

你們得救在乎歸回安息；你們得力在乎平靜安穩 (賽 30:15)

Lord, and I wait for you. Lord, only in you that I can get peace and get strength and get saved.

Lord, thank you. It's much better after praying to you. Your Word is the truth, and is life and is light. Lord, please fill my heart and mind and soul with your words.

Lord, may I also pray for SIC again before I go today.

Apart from Helen, Lord, please continue to heal and protect Yuet Sheung. You are worthy of all praises and you are most faithful as we have seen how you have already healed her and she now feels much better. Lord, please continue your good work in her life, not only physically but also emotionally and spiritually, so that she's ready and free to do what bigger plan you have for her. Know that she'll go take another chest X-ray again soon, Lord please give your blessings to her so it will be good result.

Lord, may I also pray for Pastor Mok. Lord, as he leads SIC he is most prominent and prompt for attack from the wicked one. Lord, please protect him and with JC's precious blood, please cover him. Lord, please give him wisdom to lead the church. Please give him good ears and a quiet heart so he hears your voice clearly when leading the church. Please also give him a gentle heart and a controlled tongue, so he can work with others in the SIC team in harmony and in love. Lord, please also protect and pour out your blessings for his family, too.

Lord, understand site for the day camp for the Cleansing Stream course is already found. Please guide and protect the preparation work for the retreat camp. Lord, please also protect and prepare us - all group members, group leaders, church leaders, helpers... every one, to prepare our hearts for God you will do great work there at the retreat camp. Lord, prepare me, so I can be ready for you to work on, and that I can be renewed and more and more, to walk in you. More and more.

Lord, may I thus pray for KY our group leader. To protect her health and work. Lord I also pray for other team members in Group 3: Winnie, Irene, Lydia, Joyce, Priscilla. Lord, pray that we'll all continue to follow the course, do homework so as to get closer to you, get clear up ourselves, so as to be really healed and freed and renewed in you.

Lord, last but not least I praise you for the wonderful set up you've orchestrated at Vision Creations. Your wisdom is high above ours, and whom on earth can be your counsel? Lord, we can just be amazed and praise the wonderful thing you have done. May your name be praised and your kingdom come. Lord, may we be part of the plan to bring it true.

Lord, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You are to be praised and you are to be worshiped. Hallelujah.

In name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.

Weekly Prayer (8 - part 1)

Dear my Lord,Good morning.

Thank you for such good news to start the day, with Cecilia accepting you into her life. Can really feel the joy from Shun's SMS. Lord, thank you. You indeed hear our prayer and answer us. Thank you.

Lord, may I first pray for the pastors and leaders in our church first.

Lord, I'd like to pray for Helen. Lord, thanks for loving her so much so that she's so full of your love that it overflows, and we can all feel it besides her. Lord, please continue to protect her and lead her feet on your path as she is now our pastor. Lord, please continue to guide her to do great work, not only for SIC, but work for your whole kingdom. Lord, you have always given her this special calling on prayer. Please continue to use her and develop her to raise up our prayer and intercession for your kingdom. Lord, please also pouring out your blessings to her family. Lord, there were so much hurt from her family when she was young. But thanks so much lord for you've healed her so. And it's so dear to her heart for her parents and family to believe in you, Lord. Please have mercy on Helen and her family and you attract them to you.

Weekly Prayer (7)

Dear my Lord,

Dear my lord. Dear my lord. dear my lord. My Lord, I cry for you from bottom of my heart. Lord, I long for your presence. Lord, you are my 避難所 - whenever I feel fear and nervous and stressed and nervous, you're there to comfort me. Lord, I come to you,because you said we'll gain strength again when we wait for you. Because you said you know all our needs and we only need to first seek your kingdom and your righteousness. Lord, I come to you to lay in front of you to worship you. Lord, you and you alone in this world is my saviour and you and you alone can give me true peace and true joy in my heart.

Lord thank you! Because the best thing to do is to keep our focus on you. Is to look at you, the wonder you've done in the world. The wonders you have' doing in our lives. Lord, you are indeed praise worthy. You are faithful and loving. And you never change, you never quit. You are always there for us. Lord, thank you. And you are a God of love and mercy, but at the same time you are a God of righteousness.

Lord, I pray for Winnie. Thanks again for the good sharing and good time together with her yesterday. Lord, Iord thank you for giving me the chance to share with her once again, what's the key fact about believing in you. Lord, please work in her heart so she can accept you and know you. Lord, Jesus, in your name I break all the lies or bondage that Satan has placed into Winnie's mind and heart. Lord, in your name I take all those rubbish out but put into her heart only your words of truth, your words of wisdom. Lord, let her know and feel your love, and please bless her and let her make a right decision.

Lord, I also thank you again for all the opportunity for me to get to know all these other people from work. And giving me the chance to share with them what a different outlook for life and work can me. Lord, please continue to give me strength so your joy is in me. So your love and joy can fill me and overflow from me to people around me. Lord, let me renew myself and my mind in you so people can tell that I'm a different person, so they'll give praise to you Lord our God.

Lord, I pray for SIC. I pray that you raise up more brothers and sisters and anoint more of us so we can serve you more, serve you better. But more importantly, get closer to you and build a stronger relationship with you. That's the single most important thing! As you said, you are the vine and we are the branches, if not connected to you we can do nothing. So for us to be able to do anything, my Lord, let us stay close keep connected and get strong as your branch.

Lord, I pray to you for Carol. Lord, I praise you and thank you for using her, anointing her. She's faithful to you, Lord. She's faithful to serve you. She's hungry for you her heart is hungry for you, Lord. She wants more of you, more of you in her life. Lord, please continue to use her, please continue to bless her, please continue to encourage her so she'll continue to search you, with this fire from you burning in her heart.

Lord, I also pray to you for Yuet Sheung. Lord, I know you'll heal her. I just know, and you said so, already. But I pray to you that you also comfort her, too, Lord. I feel this sadness in my heart for her. As Carol said, it's the 委屈 in her heart that I feel. So sad, so heart breaking. Lord, she's your previous daughter, the one you love. You'll wipe dry her tears and you love her so. Lord, please comfort her. Relieve this burden and sorrow from her heart. Comfort her. Reveal your will to her. Give her strength, to continue to walk in your way. Lord, I put Yuet Seung in you, uplift her in my prayer.

Lord, I also pray to you for ah keung. Lord, you have said you're to uplift him. Lord, you'll establish him and you'll raise him up. Lord, Thank you. Thank you for your promise and your blessing. Can feel the energy and power coming in. Lord, please bless his way. Please continue to keep this fire in him burning. Please give him wisdom so something can be available soon for the popo fighters, for them to know you better. For them to ultimately return to you, to become your great soldiers.

Lord, I also pray for another group of non-believers - those in CX. Lord, please prepare our ways and open doors for us for the Alpha Course in CX. Lord, I know you've told us to go ahead already. Please guide our way. Lord, please use this course and the tools to really attract, move and bring them to you. Lord, please prepare those who'll be helping out for the course, and prepare those who'll take part in the course. May them get to know you better, Lord. May them truly get to know you.

Lord, at the same time I pray for CX. Lord, I pray for the work that are entrusted into my hands for CX. Lord, especially I pray to you for the 60th Anniversary roadshow preparation. Lord, once again this stress and nervousness come hit on me again, but I know they're not from you, Lord! Lord, you are to give me strength and wisdom or brothers/sisters or others to help do it together - you never fail me! It may not be the way I've expected but your will always happen as you want it to. Lord, so in your name I refuse to accept all these self doubt talk or discouraging words. Lord, in you I only say and hear words of positive influence - words that would build people and encourage others and bring out positive result, instead of any accusation, discouraging or negative things. Lord, from you I ask for strength and wisdom and joy and love. Lord, as I determine to walk in your spirit and to commit, totally commit myself to you, please have HS to remind me always so every day by every day, every choice by every choice, I can truly live and work and walk in you.

Lord, I also pray for CX as a whole. Lord, please give blessing to this company. Please change the hearts of the key senior executives so they'd want to make CX a "good" company - good in your sense, Lord. Lord, I pray that this company will do more and more things which are in line with your will. Lord, let CX be a company that is pleasing to you.

Lord, I also pray to you for CCF. Thank you so much for your guidance and leadership on how CCF to move forward and for remaining this year. Lord, may your will be done! Let us really live out our passion in you and to live according to what you plan for us! That while in CX, let us live out the special assignment you've given us for this company, for market place, for the colleagues you've given us, for the cities and countries that we operate in. Lord, let CX & CCF be a good tool in you.

Lord, thank you for giving me Gen 39 today. And as you promise Joseph that all he has done is good and smooth because he's with you, I know you have the same promise for me. Lord, Let me live in you and walk in your spirit, always. And like Joseph, Lord, let me be your blessings to others, too.

In name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Weekly Prayer (6)

Good morning my Lord.

Thank you for such a great morning. I see you in this blog, I see you in this brother's life. And it's so good to know, there are so many of us, though we don't know each other and we've never met, but in you we are all so close together and are all connected in you. Thank you Lord.

Lord, may I first give thanks and give praise to you. There are just so many things I wanna pray about and thank you for, my Lord! Your blessings and supply are plentiful.

Lord I thank you for the great meeting we had with CCF core team yesterday. Lord, your presence was felt and your leadership was clear. I'm so glad you move things forward Lord. Please continue to lead us and guide us and protect us so we can serve you in unity.

Lord, I also thank you for bringing Mary the same vision for the alpha course at CX. Lord, No matter what, if this is what you told me to do I'll go for it. Lord, please continue to lead the way and prepare the path for us.

Lord, I also thank you for the precious learning from you. Lord, I learned how wonderful it is for us brothers and sisters to work as a team. How wonderful the different spiritual gifts you have given us to work together, to serve you in the best way. Lord, it's simply wonderful! When I tried to do too much (like taking minutes for our CCF mtg), I then actually got into the way and slowed things down. Lord, but you've prepared right person for the right task so this time it works just perfect! So Lord I don't worry at all for the future music players for our worship sessions. Lord, once and again you have shown us that you'll supply. And I'll just pray to you to supply and prepare for us. Because I know you like us to continue worship and pray to you in CX, with our colleagues and brothers and sisters there, so that I believe in you and that you'll provide us with all we need. Thank you Lord.

And I wanna thank you for the very late night work last night. Lord, thanks for being with me. Thanks for teaching me how to love the way your love, instead of loving people in my own way. Thanks for reminding me. If Holy Spirit was not with me last night I think I would have approved the artwork much earlier on, trying to love people on earthly way so they can go back to sleep earlier. But Lord, I then learned that it was not the way you wanted me to go! Not loving people on earthly way. Not pleasing people in the way they'd love to be treated. But rather, my Lord, to love others the way you love. To really take things you have entrusted in our hands seriously. Lord, I'm serving YOU! I'm serving YOU in all these I'm working with! It's one thing if I can't tell if anything better can be done; but if I know it can be done better but not doing it simply because I try to "love" the other party by alleviating their workload, it doesn't sound right! Lord, your love includes what's right and what's wrong. And let me continue to learn it from you, and keep my heart close to you so that I'll always be alert as of what I should do or should not do.

Lord, and may I pray for SIC our church. Lord, apart from teaching me how to "一手做工一手拿兵器", "腰間佩刀" to work with you, I also pray the same for our brothers and sisters. Lord, please attract them with your fragrance so that they'll have regular quiet time in you and regular bible reading time, as your word is life and light and truth. Lord, I know life is busy in HK and we need to win our battle in our mind to do so. Please give them strength and let them know the importance of their mind and raise their alertness so we can all win this battle and grow and be strong and be close to you. Lord, let us really get close to you so we will all walk in your spirit and be obedient to what you tell us. Lord, I pray for this extreme blessing for the brothers and sisters in SIC.

Lord, may I also pray to you to build and develop 門徒 in our church, through different courses and classes. Lord, please give wisdom to Queenie as she's responsible for many of the beginner courses for SIC. Lord, please give the anointing of teaching to Pastor Joseph for he also teaches a number of those classes. Lord, please give wisdom and the vision and good strategy and tactics to all our 教牧同工 so they know how to take care of your sheep and to guide them and to develop them and to equip them. Lord, I also pray to you for Helen for she's responsible for the Cleansing Stream course. Please continue to give her strength and guide her way and protect her and the whole team working on the course. Please also protect Yuet Sheung and heal her, lord, for her lungs and cough and respiratory problem. Lord, I know you love her and she's faithful to you. Lord, please hear her prayer and reveal your will to her and to heal her so she can be back on track to serve you wholeheartedly. Last but not least, Lord, may I pray for the "course development" at the "Vision ministry". Lord, this is a group of people with your great blessings. Lord, this is a group of people who you have used. Lord, this is the group of people who go after your own heart. Please continue to reveal your plan to them and to guide them along the way. As we gather and try to develop such a "course" Lord, please be with us and fill every one of us so we walk in spirit in you. Lord, please prepare the way for us. And please at the same time give the same vision to our 教牧同工 at SIC so we can have their spiritual support and protection and coverage, and that inside and outside "the wall of a church" we can all do great work for you.

Thank you Lord. Thank you. It's always great to have prayer time in you. Please also bless my work today and bless the meeting with Johnny. Pray to you to continue doing great work in his heart, in his life. And give me wisdom so that I can adjust my life to meet with your plan, and to bring more people back to you.

Thank you Lord.

In name of Jesus Christ, amen.

popo: sometime it's hard...

(as posted in popo hompy)

I could still hold out my tears when I was leaving office. But as I shared what I went through that day with my popo family, I could not stop the tears dropping.

Actually, nothing too dramatic, it was just everyday life to many people -

My boss told me not to proceed with a project previously. He shared the reasonale behind. I totally supported his decision and I thought it was good learning for me too as I have not considered those points before. But then, another team presented a different but similar project this day. Disregarding the concerns and rationale also apply in this situation, my boss approved their plan.

That's it.

I wasn't mad at him. I wasn't even angry with him.

I just felt a bit hurt.

Because I have always treated him as more than just "boss" but also have tried to popo him all along, so the bit of "hurt" was felt stronger than from a usual "boss".

And unless I can get "recovered" in this hurt feeling, I can't really popo him again.

Then 抱抱管家 said: "車! 即係你無放低自己囉!"

I guess, she's right... sometime, popo other, even a person you like, it can still be hard...

popo: sometime it's easy...

(as posted in popo hompy)

This day I attended a meeting with my counterpart (the same person from my previous post), and we needed to take a ride together.

For more than a few minutes, I stood there saying nothing. There was literally a battle going on in me:

"Go talk to her la..."

"I don't really feel like talking to her."

"Why? Don't you always just talk to others - nearly just any one?"

"Well, it's different here...what am I supposed to say?"

"Why does it bother you now? Don't you wanna get to know other people, as who they really are? Why not the same with her?"

"I..."

"Didn't you say you wanna try popo her? How can you popo her without even starting a conversation?"

So there and then, I made up my mind and finally went up to her. Really it was silly thing that we talked about - clothes, hair styles, work, what to do over the weekend... frankly, these were not subjects that I am even remotely interested in!

But then, though the subject matters were boring, amazingly, I could feel some changes in me! Some changes in my heart. I started to really take interest in getting to know her as a person. From a very indifferent and cold and shut-up heart towards her, now that I am much more ready to talk to her or to joke with her. And to me at least, we get along so much better now than before.

Hard as it may be to popo someone we don't like, it can also be easy, sometimes.

It all depends: which side do you listen to? What choice will you make?

Weekly Prayer (5 - part 2)

Hello my Lord,

Can't believe it it's already 3rd month of the year already! Thanks so much for such a great start of the year in the past 2 months. I know you have an exciting plan for us this year and it will only get better as we move on. Thanks my Lord.

It's so good to have this extra session with you today - really the quiet time from yesterday afternoon was just half of what we usually do! So it's only fair that we make it up now - and more importantly, I wanna pray and chat with you!

I wanna pray for CX and CCF today but before that, I really wanna thank you.

Thank you for the Cleansing Stream classes and the good book of "Battlefield of the Mind". I've got so much out of it and most importantly, the course (mainly its homework) and the book has brought me so close to you, every day, every moment! Lord and it's such sweet sweet sweet and fulfilling experience that nothing can be compared with. Lord, I truly miss you, you know, when I can't concentrate or can't have a "proper" quiet time with you. I think the Sunday morning feeling is quite peculiar but even now as I am making this prayer, I can feel the yawning from my spirit and soul for you. Thank you Lord. Really, only with you that life is true life; without you in life it's really not life at all.

And apart from your presence and the close relationship we have established thru the course, I really wanna thank you for your enlightening in me. Lord, it's not easy for a person like me to discover how unforgiving I am - for such little things, for so long, and so difficult to discover and such grudges were just hiding from me because they don't carry any strong emotion or hatred. Just simply, plainly, unforgiving and didn't let go and didn't choose to love that person again. Lord, it's only possible in you for me to discover and to bring these to you and to finally decide to let go of all these and while I forgive, I am also forgiven and be freed in you. Thank you, Lord. Thanks so much.

And this one is also so great. This teaching on a "passive heart". Again it's something which I usually won't associate with myself at all! But then in light of Holy Spirit I can now see clearly how this has been my approach and escape from tasks I don't wanna do at work! And how this has been the root cause of all the stress and burden and self accusation and condemnation that I have been experiencing! But now, Lord, in you, I know I can overcome this. You make me to succeed and to enjoy life and enjoy my work for you at this job this position as you put me here. Lord, your intention is for me to "make it" instead of "not making it". And I'll do just that, Lord. In me not possible, but in you, all things are possible.

And thanks so much for your blessing as when I have decided to overcome it yesterday and decided to really work on it today, you have blessed me with a great morning for work progress and my concentration and to control the negative thought and fear in me. Lord, with you I know I can win this battle in my mind. Not just this battle, but this war for lives and spirits and souls for many more people around the world as well.

Lord, and here I am, praying for CCF.

We will have the next core team meeting this FRI. I know there are things that I suppose to prepare and type up before the meeting. Please guide me in your way so I am clear what role you want me to play and what responsibilities I should take. And once I hear you, that I will follow your will and do so obediently. Please help me to guide against lazy spirit. But let me be a responsible servant who takes good care of whatever you have entrusted to her and make things prosper in you.

Lord, I also pray for you for the possible Alpha Course or other non-believers cell group in CCF. You're so wonderful that after my last prayer (prayer 3?) you answered me right away with an email from this new colleague joining CCF and CX, that he's pleased to see Alpha Course being run here! Yes Lord, indeed, we need to move on on this. And I'll take this up. Please guide my way going forward and whenever I go before you or go astray from your way, please bring me back.

And Lord I wanna pray for CX as well.

It's quite encouraging to read about this Marketplace submit in NYC in Apr this year. It's encouraging to see that God you have been doing so much wonder if the marketplace - and for a place like NYC! so similar to HK. Lord, please reveal your will to me so I know if you wanna send me to attend the summit. I know I wanna go a bit - not sure if it's my own thinking or from you? It does get stronger! Lord, if you would allow please give me some signs or indication so I'd know for sure if it's my own flesh telling me or from you indeed.

Lord, but beside the NYC summit I really wanna pray for CX. Lord, to make it like the other companies you have been using in other places around the world. To make it the leader, the pioneer as it always "claims" to be, as a marketplace transformer in you. Lord, you have so much blessing for CX, thanks so much, Lord. And with our worship and prayer and intercession, we hope to continue to see changes in this place so that ultimately, it will fully be your tool, and a company which operate as per your value system!

Lord, please bless CX. And as discussed with Brian yesterday, please bless the work of your people so whatever we do, we do them successfully and smoothly and to give glory and praise to your name. SO that people will know and can see for themselves how much God you wanna bless us. And how your way is THE way to really bring victory, long lasting value, and the only way to life instead of death.

Lord, you are light and you are live. You are wisdom and you are the way, the words. Lord, Thank you, and please continue to lead my way.

Love you, Lord.

In name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.