Presentation to Student Group

Today, I took a "work order" from my boss to help her deliver a presentation to a group of students visiting our company. They are all final year Marketing major students. About 40 of them.

I spent the whole morning preparing for the presentation. As I was working on it, I prayed quietly in my heart that I did want to share some useful things with them. I didn't want to just deliver a presentation. I hoped that they could really take something away and be blessed.

As I walked into the room, they were just having a short break. When I was setting up my presentation I prayed for them quietly to our Lord, to bless them.

All went well. Just 2 questions raised during Q&A, and the lecturer said "oh, they're so shy. They would probably ask you questions during lunch!" So lunch together we went.

I was so absent-minded that I didn't see the placard with my name on the first table so I took a seat on the last table. After I took the first plate of food back to my seat, I prayed, and about to start to eat. Then the first question came from the young gentleman sitting opposite:

"Grace, do you see any conflict of your religion and your work? I see that you are a Christian. How do you see living out one's faith in work environment? You know, I'm a Christian too so I asked."

I believe there were at least 5-10 seconds that I didn't know how to react, but staring at him blankly. Would you expect such a question at all? I CERTAINLY DIDN'T! And I just can't tell you how amazed I was when I heard about this.

So after the initial shock, I got the opportunity to share how I led a Christian life at work - and how indeed it is just THE way! And we even got the opportunity to talk about CCF and the Alpha Course in CX, too. And I'm really glad that I could share with them the truth that God does have a great plan for each and every single one of us, and to encourage them to find that calling and passion in their life.

Oh my Lord, how amazing you are. How amazing you are. When our hearts turn to you and that we do things for you, you then give us the opportunity to testify for you and give glory to you. Oh my dear Lord, you are just amazing!

Praise our Lord!

我的底線

之前 Wesley 有一篇 blog 講到他與神立定的底線，我不期然想，我與神的底線又是甚麼呢？

我想，對我而言最最要緊的底線，是我的心怎麼想，怎麼相信：

• 無論怎樣，我都知道這個神是真的，因為我已經經歷過祂的真實；
• 無論怎樣，我都知道這個神是最愛我們的，祂只會給我們最好的，縱然有時候我可能不明白為甚麼事情要這樣發生。

箴言 4:23 你要保守你心，勝過保守一切，因為一生的果效是由心發出。

My Prayer for HKIR 2006

My dear Lord,

After the fun-filled Gala Party, I now need to start work on the HKIR. It’s really difficult for me as I think gambling is something you don’t like, and so I don’t wanna promote it. But I don’t know how to do it as I know I can’t escape from this project, either.

Lord, thanks so much for your revelation last night – that I really can’t do it! Just on myself there is no way I can change it or turn it around. I just can’t do anything about it.

But with YOU, we can do ANYTHING! Lord, you can do anything, including turning this HKIR thing into a blessing instead of it being used by the devil to capture people’s lives and soul.

Lord, I serve you. I know you are the only one I serve when I work on this project or in fact, any other project that I work on. Lord, in Jesus Christ’s name I proclaim this CXHKIR event is YOUR event, YOUR name to be glorified, that people will find YOU and see YOU thru this event, instead of being captured by this world.

And Lord, with the strength and wisdom that you give me and the fact that you work with me together for this cause, this event in fact turn people AWAY from gambling, AWAY from the lost world, but to find YOU. Lord, in you this event should turn into a great success, NOT by bringing in more people or more money to the race, but bringing people to YOU.

Lord, I don’t know how it can be done. I have no clue at all how to do it! But this is the heart that I lay in front of you. This is the only reason for which I can work on this campaign. Lord, but just in case it’s just my wishful thinking and indeed you want me to have nothing to do with it, please, please let me know. Please let me know what’s your will, so I can adjust my life to you.

Lord, thank you. Because you have always prepared way out for us, and that in You, we can live this abundant life.

Thank you Lord. Thank you.

In name of Jesus Christ I pray.

Amen.

感謝主 - 60周年晚會

我覺得好需要寫這個blog, 頌讚主, 記下主的恩典.

上星期五, 我公司舉行了一個十分盛大的晚會, 慶祝公司成立 60 周年. 這是我的 project - 是今年最大的, 也是我工作以來所負責的最大形的一個 project.

一面準備這個 project 的時候, 都好喜樂, 雖然工作真的很繁重, 有時工作時間也很長, 睡得很少, 不過, 心裡卻依然好歡喜, 也不怎麼疲倦, 也不怎麼緊張, 心裡十二分的清楚, 這不是我的能力, 也不是我 EQ 特別高, 或 energy level 特別高, 而是來自主的恩典, 同在, 與保守. (話說回來, 也不是每天都如此 "狀態大勇", 也有乏力與緊張失眠的時候 -- 那時就要 Wesley 與 Angela 多多為我禱告了.)

你問我我也不明白, 但心中就是有個意念 -- 神要在這個 project 中得榮耀. HOW? I don't know. 究竟神怎樣在一個商業機構的 party 裡得榮耀呢? 怎麼有關係呢? 我真的不知道. 但這個意念就是在心中. 我就不斷捉著這個意念禱告. 自己心中也清楚明白, 自己的努力工作, 與以前十分不同: 為的不再是 prove 自己的能力, 也不是為 impress 老板, 也不是熱愛公司到這麼不眠不休的地步, 而是盡心盡力服侍主. 不知是誰說的話: to live in God is to live your life to the fullest. 這幾個月, 心中很經歷得到主在工作中的同在. 真的很感恩.

一面做這個 project 時, 因為有來自神的平安與喜樂, 所以常常都 "笑得出", 我相信這也是見證主的方法之一, 就好像神當年在亞水身上所作的, 吸引我去尋求祂一樣. 當 "有人問(我) 心中盼望的緣由"，我就"常作準備，以溫柔、敬畏的心回答各人" , "心裡尊主基督為聖" ( 1Pe 3:15) 。感謝主, 讓我有機會將榮耀歸給祂, 也藉機向別人介紹主耶穌.

這個 party, 是在一個半 outdoor 的場地舉行: 下雨當然不行, 但太熱, 或太大風也不可以. 之前我老板笑說, 他從來都好好運, 搞 function 時都會好天. 但接近 party 那數天, 他也有點緊張, 我告訴他我會繼續為此禱告, 他說, "well, that should help, too." 而我則很清楚, 是神回應我們的禱告, 我也感謝主, 叫我在祂眼前蒙恩. after all, 天氣又豈是人能掌握的呢?

最後想說的是, 真的很感恩, 多謝主賜我們一間好好的 supplier, 好好的團隊, 當中成就的一切, 都是來自主的.

結果, 這個 party 十分成功, 當別人讚 "搞得好" 時, 我真的很由衷地覺得我沒有做甚麼, 願榮耀都歸給主.

(p.s. 我打中文真的很慢, 這篇東西我打了差不多兩句鐘.)

Post-Agape Conference 2006 & Sui's sharing

Last week Wesley and I and many others went to Kaohsiung of Taiwan to join the Agape Conference 2006. Praise our Lord for some good healing, some key messages, some important take-aways - but I'm not going to talk about them here. What I wanna talk about is what happened after the conference, after we got back, in the past few days.

In the past few days, I have experienced a new level of craving for our Lord that I have never experienced before. Always, always, I wanna stay in the presence of our Lord. It seems just never enough for the short period of time which I can concentrate on Him each morning. In my mind I know the work I do is for Him and is His ministry - but still, I would rather just look up to my Lord, and just sit there and focus on Him.

I have never experienced this before. I guess, there is something to do with the Agape Conference, for I was immersed in His presence totally in those few days. And how I missed such good time! So now I just wanna be back with Him, still.

Apart from the fact that I am hungry for His love and presence, I have also prayed to our Lord for me to experience Him even more, more of Himself, more of His anointing.

I still remember how I picked the first workshop to go to during the Agape Conference - I had that craving in my heart even then, for more of our Lord. So finally I went to join Pastor Suen's session on "Being Filled by Holy Spirit". I know I'm not looking for the external physical manifestation of the Holy Spirit, but I really, really want more of our Lord, want to experience Him more, that can come with physical response though.

And I want more of His anointing, too. Yes I want more of His anointing. I wanna experience Him more. I wanna receive His power so I can also do more for Him. And I wanna please Him. And by so doing I know I gonna love Him even more, and experience His love even more.

And so I dream on. And deep down from my heart, I know I wanna do great things for Him. Big things. It's always in my heart to do more for Him. More.

I'm always conscious that it should not be the physical manifestation that we are going after, nor it should be the ministry or work that we do for our Lord that should give us satisfaction. But even with this consciousness, somehow, this urge is in my heart so that one day, may be, I can be used by our Lord to influence many. Like one of these many speakers that we heard from during the conference.

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During the conference, one of the key message for me, personally, is the message about breaking down the wall between two generations. As Wesley shared in his blog, we can't hide away from it any longer. We can't pretend that we have nothing to do with it any more.

I have never thought about it, but as Wesley shared in his blog, even my growing up was a lonely journey. Quite an orphan journey. I have never thought this way before as you know, I have very loving parents and I also grow up with quite some good friends. I have never thought that spiritually, really, I have never truly experienced that connection between 2 generations. It may be the reason why unconsciously, even since I was still young, I would like to play with people older than myself but have never been enthusiastic about making friends with people younger than myself - I don't know how to communicate with them. I don't wanna learn about the different culture in their generation. Basically I'm not that interested in their world. And didn't feel the need that I should be.

But now, after this conference, I know though I don't feel like it, God has spoken to me and that I need to do something about it. What? I don't know yet. But I do know that I need to take this message back and to start with, to share with the group of kids in Vision first.

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I shared this "youth" message with sui when we went to class together just this Monday. He said he was moved, by the message that how God has chosen this young generation (people under 30) .

As I got on the bus I received this SMS from sui:

I believe wes & u will join Culture V someday. May HIS will be done!

I was speechless when I got his SMS, and I didn't know how to respond. So I did not respond at all.

Actually it's not the first time sui "hinted" on this, just that this time he shared this message more directly.

Why did I not respond - simple, because I don't wanna say yes, but dare not say no.

I think there're a few things to it - how I didn't feel like to do youth work as mentioned above. But also, though consciously I dare not touch on this but I think it does affect me, is the financial insecurity if to join Culture V. And of course, also the question of what I'm to do there and that I have not heard about it directly from the Lord yet.

But this is the first time, the first time I seriously start thinking about it - thinking about why I have been avoiding this thought previously. Praise our Lord. I know He is continuing His good work in my life and continue renewing me.

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And sui called me again today for some other stuff. Then I mentioned about the SMS and why I didn't reply. Sui didn't push further but rather shared another message:

No I won't push you two on it. God has His timing. I just wanna tell you - when you look at those speakers, they're so great on stage, doing great things for God. You don't need to admire them - because things like that are already happening around you! Once Wesley and you 'jump in' and get started you would have even greater things to share.

I was shocked. I knew immediately, God was speaking to me.

Isn't it the prayer I have been making to God in the past few days? That I wanna do great things for Him? That how I admired the other speakers, for their lives are so used by our Lord. That how I wanna be like them and be immersed in our Lord all the time and just to do His work. Oh how I miss our Lord.

And now, tonight, I think it's a promise and a revelation from the Lord to us. US. Wesley and I.

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I still don't know what it's like going forward. I still don't know exactly how I can turn my heart to the young generation so I can help path the way for them or prepare for them to do God's work. I also don't know if Wesley and I will join Culture V some time. All of these are still unknown.

I just know that, I want more and more and more Jesus in my life. NOW. Before I get enough of Him to know where He wants me to go or do, I'll continue to look - to look for HIM, directly.

Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord.