Last month, Wesley and I went into a serious discussion about the possibility of me working part time. This subject has been coming up from time to time since the birth of Yee Sum and Yee Lok. But this time, we entered into a very serious discussion about it.
To cut the story short, we have jointly decided not to make any changes as of now. What I really treasure is not the end result but the thinking process and the discussion and the discovery we had along the way.
The disagreement we had was mainly about whether it's God's will or not? I felt that it's of God's will that I spent more time with the kids. That was in line with the teaching of Bible. Wesley didn't feel that way. And he also shared some books and articles with me from some good Bible teachers of why working part time or not wasn't really related to God's will for my life.
Is Wesley right or am I right? At the end, we agreed that both of us are correct in some way.
My interpretation is this: there really is no wrong career choice in God (well that's in my case/ normal case only, of course! We are not talking about drug trafficking or killing here.). As long as I have set my mind to serve Him and to love Him with all my soul and all my heart and all my mind and to live my life that way, it really doesn't matter what kind of job I do. I can serve Him all the same, with 100% of my life if I was a teacher or doctor or cleaner or postman.
However, if one career choice meant to me more addiction to job satisfaction (instead of being satisfied in Him), more concern for status, tighter grab of money, less reliance on Him, less time for Him, and i knew it by my heart, then to me, it probably was not the choice that God would like me to make. It has to do with my heart rather than the outset of things. To someone else, the same job could be perfectly fine because they could serve God wholeheartedly in it, but for me the same job could be a selfish, worldly choice if I knew deep down in my heart I chose this job was not to glorify God but to satisfy my own wish.
Isn't written clearly in Bible?
"The lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the lord looks at the heart." Samuel 16:7
Praise the Lord for us to get to know one another better, also to know Him better.
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Thursday, February 10, 2011
Sunday, February 06, 2011
Life and death
I'm now on my way to a funeral. I guess this is the first time I attend a funeral of a person same at my age. And the first one I personally know who died of suicide.
I knew Roger since first year in secondary school. We were in different classes. Not particularly close - I had not seen her since we graduated.
That night, I got an SMS from an old school friend, asking me if I knew Roger. 'Yes, of course. Why?' I asked. Then he replied, 'she suicide yesterday.' I stared at my phone, speechless, my mind went blank. I have been thinking about her since then. Why?
My mind traveled back to secondary school time. Roger was in class B, and I in class F. The two elite classes in our school. We never went to the same class. I got to know her more because of a common friend. He called her 'Sai Lo', little brother. So we followed. That's how I got acquainted with Sai Lo.
Sai Lo was a lovely person. Always cheerful, and so kind to others. If there was any hint, might be the relationship she had with her boyfriend then? It seemed she was very devoted to him and that she took that relationship very seriously. Might be too seriously.
After graduation from secondary school, we went on different paths and we didn't really meet. But as Sai Lo became a teacher at our secondary school, I would still hear news about her.
What shocked me most, and made me feel so much for her passing away, was probably the fact that she decided to end her own life. And the picture of her mom in newspaper, looking for her daughter at the school because she didn't receive the daily call from her and couldn't find her anywhere, only to hear this shocking sad news from the headmaster and other teachers at the school.
Why? I couldn't help ask. Why? If she loved her mom so much to ring her up every day, how could she so determined to leave her mom moaning for her death? No I couldn't understand. I could only imagine that she was at that point in life so painful and hopeless that she could no longer care for persons that she loved, but to end her own life.
Why? I asked myself again. If a cheerful lovely smart girl like Roger would end up this way, then what's the way out? What hope is left? In particular, if a loving daughter like that still left her parents with such sadness, what Chinese said 'white headed to send off the dark headed', then what hope is there for parents? How should we raise our own kids? People always say being a parent is a life long task. But who would have expected this? After that long journey of raising up the kids, sending them to school, seeing them settled down, got a job, got married - then suddenly, gone. As a mom now, I guess this is what I find most sad and shocking and difficult to accept.
Hope, the only ultimate hope in this world, is Jesus Christ. Lord You are the only hope. Only in You we can say there is always hope. Even if there is no hope in this world, You are our hope in the world to come. Only if we have You we know no matter what, we don't need to resolve to ending our own lives.
Lord, there is not much I can do for Sai Lo now. May I pray to You to give peace to her family - her husband, still, and especially her mom, but also her students. It just hurts so much for people around her to accept this. Please give them peace.
And Lord, may I pray for every single person out there, who still has not yet found You, the ultimate hope in their lives. Lord, it's so heart breaking to see people losing hope to end their lives. And then this despair got spread around to others around them. Lord, may I pray to You to send many workers out there to harvest many souls. May I pray that I become one of the many that You use and send out to bring people back to You, so they'd see You, know You, know hope, and know true life.
In Jesus's name I pray, amen.
I knew Roger since first year in secondary school. We were in different classes. Not particularly close - I had not seen her since we graduated.
That night, I got an SMS from an old school friend, asking me if I knew Roger. 'Yes, of course. Why?' I asked. Then he replied, 'she suicide yesterday.' I stared at my phone, speechless, my mind went blank. I have been thinking about her since then. Why?
My mind traveled back to secondary school time. Roger was in class B, and I in class F. The two elite classes in our school. We never went to the same class. I got to know her more because of a common friend. He called her 'Sai Lo', little brother. So we followed. That's how I got acquainted with Sai Lo.
Sai Lo was a lovely person. Always cheerful, and so kind to others. If there was any hint, might be the relationship she had with her boyfriend then? It seemed she was very devoted to him and that she took that relationship very seriously. Might be too seriously.
After graduation from secondary school, we went on different paths and we didn't really meet. But as Sai Lo became a teacher at our secondary school, I would still hear news about her.
What shocked me most, and made me feel so much for her passing away, was probably the fact that she decided to end her own life. And the picture of her mom in newspaper, looking for her daughter at the school because she didn't receive the daily call from her and couldn't find her anywhere, only to hear this shocking sad news from the headmaster and other teachers at the school.
Why? I couldn't help ask. Why? If she loved her mom so much to ring her up every day, how could she so determined to leave her mom moaning for her death? No I couldn't understand. I could only imagine that she was at that point in life so painful and hopeless that she could no longer care for persons that she loved, but to end her own life.
Why? I asked myself again. If a cheerful lovely smart girl like Roger would end up this way, then what's the way out? What hope is left? In particular, if a loving daughter like that still left her parents with such sadness, what Chinese said 'white headed to send off the dark headed', then what hope is there for parents? How should we raise our own kids? People always say being a parent is a life long task. But who would have expected this? After that long journey of raising up the kids, sending them to school, seeing them settled down, got a job, got married - then suddenly, gone. As a mom now, I guess this is what I find most sad and shocking and difficult to accept.
Hope, the only ultimate hope in this world, is Jesus Christ. Lord You are the only hope. Only in You we can say there is always hope. Even if there is no hope in this world, You are our hope in the world to come. Only if we have You we know no matter what, we don't need to resolve to ending our own lives.
Lord, there is not much I can do for Sai Lo now. May I pray to You to give peace to her family - her husband, still, and especially her mom, but also her students. It just hurts so much for people around her to accept this. Please give them peace.
And Lord, may I pray for every single person out there, who still has not yet found You, the ultimate hope in their lives. Lord, it's so heart breaking to see people losing hope to end their lives. And then this despair got spread around to others around them. Lord, may I pray to You to send many workers out there to harvest many souls. May I pray that I become one of the many that You use and send out to bring people back to You, so they'd see You, know You, know hope, and know true life.
In Jesus's name I pray, amen.
Friday, December 31, 2010
2010 - a brief review and my new year resolution
Things I am most happy about:
- traveled with parents to Japan
- traveled with Wesley and the kids to Rotorua
- the last two weeks of the year in holiday with the kids. Finally Lok Lok would ask for Mami rather than Auntie!
- those months when Wesley and I could stick with our dating plan
Things I am not too proud of:
- my spiritual life, my daily devotion, bible reading, or quiet time
- how I might have missed a part time opportunity
Other things worth remembering:
- I like those Swire training courses that I attended. They helped me in different ways.
- I like those courses Wesley and I attended about social justice. I hope we can continue the changes we have decided to make (eg not to eat beef) but to do even more down the road as well.
- I felt devastated when we found that Lok Lok experienced the same issue as Sum Sum. We must have done something wrong, and that we must do the right thing going forward to help them get well.
- Job change at Marketing.
Things to do in 2011:
Spiritually, with Wesley)
- resume our daily bible reading and to follow the same reading plan
- share our thought and reflection weekly
- download and listen to the sermon each week
Family
- resume the monthly time alone with Wesley
- travel with my parents once again in 2011?
- traveled with parents to Japan
- traveled with Wesley and the kids to Rotorua
- the last two weeks of the year in holiday with the kids. Finally Lok Lok would ask for Mami rather than Auntie!
- those months when Wesley and I could stick with our dating plan
Things I am not too proud of:
- my spiritual life, my daily devotion, bible reading, or quiet time
- how I might have missed a part time opportunity
Other things worth remembering:
- I like those Swire training courses that I attended. They helped me in different ways.
- I like those courses Wesley and I attended about social justice. I hope we can continue the changes we have decided to make (eg not to eat beef) but to do even more down the road as well.
- I felt devastated when we found that Lok Lok experienced the same issue as Sum Sum. We must have done something wrong, and that we must do the right thing going forward to help them get well.
- Job change at Marketing.
Things to do in 2011:
Spiritually, with Wesley)
- resume our daily bible reading and to follow the same reading plan
- share our thought and reflection weekly
- download and listen to the sermon each week
Family
- resume the monthly time alone with Wesley
- travel with my parents once again in 2011?
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
The Shack
'The Shack' was the last book I read in 2009. It was certainly the year end gift I have received from Dear God. As mentioned in the promotional message, in this book, I've met a "God as I've never seen him before". You can read some preview of the book at theshackbook.com
I guess the most important reason I really like this book is that it brought me close to God again. Since the birth of Sum Sum, my spiritual life has been up and down a lot, at the low end for most time because of the much busier life with 2 young kids. But when I was reading this book, once again I feel really close to God and can just talk to Him and Jesus and Holy Spirit, freely, any time. It's the intimacy I always long for but haven't experience for a long time. So I really treasure it.
Apart from that, as I read, I could really feel God's presence in the book. I could feel His presence when He worked these ideas into the author's mind and life. Only if He was there that this book could be written. And I enjoy being part of it, when I know God is there and is working in it and thru it.
One more thing I enjoyed about this book is how vividly it portrait the loving God, and how the 3 Godheads relate to one another, and the love and relationship and the fullness within God Himself. All these things I have known in my mind, but in the book I could feel in my heart, and thus to love and long for my Lord much more.
I enjoyed it so much that I bought 2 copies and gave out as Christmas presents immediately. Hope that you'd like it too.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
A welcomed break
This morning I went to get the birth certificate for Yee Lok. There were so many new born! I got to wait for about 2.5 hours before it was my turn for the application. So after getting my queue-up slip, I went to a near-by Starbucks.
It turned out to be the most relaxing and refreshing 2 hours in the past month or so!
Relaxing on a comfortable sofa, sucking in the aroma of coffee, enjoying a cup of Mocca, under the soft light, glancing out the sunny busy street outside, I enjoyed my time alone with Jesus at this corner of this busy coffee shop. Reading "The Jesus I Never Knew" by Philip Yancey, I felt I got to know Him like never before. Yes, too often I was blinded by the usual tamed way of seeing Christ. Yes, too often I was too lazy to face my own true self and Christ, to see what He really meant in His words and what it really meant to me, in my own life. It was a quiet, great encounter this morning, and reminded me more than ever who Christ is, and what He meant in my life.
Thank you Lord, for such an unexpected encounter and such a needed quiet time with you.
It turned out to be the most relaxing and refreshing 2 hours in the past month or so!
Relaxing on a comfortable sofa, sucking in the aroma of coffee, enjoying a cup of Mocca, under the soft light, glancing out the sunny busy street outside, I enjoyed my time alone with Jesus at this corner of this busy coffee shop. Reading "The Jesus I Never Knew" by Philip Yancey, I felt I got to know Him like never before. Yes, too often I was blinded by the usual tamed way of seeing Christ. Yes, too often I was too lazy to face my own true self and Christ, to see what He really meant in His words and what it really meant to me, in my own life. It was a quiet, great encounter this morning, and reminded me more than ever who Christ is, and what He meant in my life.
Thank you Lord, for such an unexpected encounter and such a needed quiet time with you.
Monday, December 31, 2007
2007 Review and 2008
Today is the last day of 2007. I am now waiting for Yee Sum to finish her last bottle of milk for this year before we head out to church to join the year end thanksgiving prayer meeting.
There are so many things we need to say thanks to our Lord.
For the smooth and healthy pregnancy period.
For the date and time and smooth operation of Yee Sum's birth.
For Yee Sum is such a lovely adorable healthy baby so easy to take care of (most of the time, not now when she's crying and refusing her milk bottle, finished only 1/3).
For my mother accepting Jesus Christ to her life and had her baptism this year.
For Robert my brother-in-law also had his baptism this year, together with my mom.
For Wesley to experience so much of Lord's presence in his work life.
For Rowena to come to our home.
For the Lord's plentiful supply to us, physically, spiritually, our health, our family.
None of the above we should take for granted. All of the above I'm truly thankful and grateful, for they're all gifts from my Lord.
Looking ahead, I think this year is a rare one in recent years that I don't have a clear plan or targets to look forward to in the year to come. May be too busy to think about?
Of course we'll continue to take care of Yee Sum and she'll have her first birthday. But then, what? Seems like no significant milestone will be coming up.
Sounds a bit dull, doesn't it? I think it sort of reflects the stagnancy I feel for right now. Especially my spiritual life. Yee Sum's birth is of course a most happy thing. But the changes I've gone through during pregnancy and after Yee Sum's birth were so great, that definitely has drawn my attention and as a result, I'm further from my Lord than before. And it's not satisfying to my heart. Things started to improve a bit since I returned to work 1.5 month ago as I can at least have my daily devotional time back. But it's still a long way to go and I do really wanna go back closer to our Lord. I guess this is the only thing that I really look forward to in 2008 for now.
(P.S. We have lost - baby still just finished 1/3 of her milk tonight and we've put her to bed already. Let's see if we'd need to feed her tonight after we come back from church...)
There are so many things we need to say thanks to our Lord.
For the smooth and healthy pregnancy period.
For the date and time and smooth operation of Yee Sum's birth.
For Yee Sum is such a lovely adorable healthy baby so easy to take care of (most of the time, not now when she's crying and refusing her milk bottle, finished only 1/3).
For my mother accepting Jesus Christ to her life and had her baptism this year.
For Robert my brother-in-law also had his baptism this year, together with my mom.
For Wesley to experience so much of Lord's presence in his work life.
For Rowena to come to our home.
For the Lord's plentiful supply to us, physically, spiritually, our health, our family.
None of the above we should take for granted. All of the above I'm truly thankful and grateful, for they're all gifts from my Lord.
Looking ahead, I think this year is a rare one in recent years that I don't have a clear plan or targets to look forward to in the year to come. May be too busy to think about?
Of course we'll continue to take care of Yee Sum and she'll have her first birthday. But then, what? Seems like no significant milestone will be coming up.
Sounds a bit dull, doesn't it? I think it sort of reflects the stagnancy I feel for right now. Especially my spiritual life. Yee Sum's birth is of course a most happy thing. But the changes I've gone through during pregnancy and after Yee Sum's birth were so great, that definitely has drawn my attention and as a result, I'm further from my Lord than before. And it's not satisfying to my heart. Things started to improve a bit since I returned to work 1.5 month ago as I can at least have my daily devotional time back. But it's still a long way to go and I do really wanna go back closer to our Lord. I guess this is the only thing that I really look forward to in 2008 for now.
(P.S. We have lost - baby still just finished 1/3 of her milk tonight and we've put her to bed already. Let's see if we'd need to feed her tonight after we come back from church...)
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Little Things
It's really just a little thing. But when our Lord is so caring as to take care of it even though I didn't ask, I'm really touched.
Well, actually it's quite silly. One of my credit cards is doing a promotion this month so if I spend this particular amount, there is extra cash rebate. So the 'deadline' for the spending is this weekend, and we still need to spend another HK$2000 to meet the target. I just don't have another HK$2000 worth of things to buy!
But then today, got an email from a sister in our church, asking me to arrange air ticket for her maid to go back home. So after checking the price and details for her, she has decided to go with it. And I can pay for her maid's ticket by credit card too before end this week.
It's really silly, isn't it? But I feel such warmth and love in my heart, as our Lord is so caring! Even for little things like this! And He provides, through His own way. I never need to worry about my needs as He'd use His miraculous ways to provide, here and there, large sum or small. We never lack of supply.
Oh my Lord, you're so sweet! Thanks so much for your gift - it's not the spending or money or even supply, but Your Love that counts! Thank you Lord!
Well, actually it's quite silly. One of my credit cards is doing a promotion this month so if I spend this particular amount, there is extra cash rebate. So the 'deadline' for the spending is this weekend, and we still need to spend another HK$2000 to meet the target. I just don't have another HK$2000 worth of things to buy!
But then today, got an email from a sister in our church, asking me to arrange air ticket for her maid to go back home. So after checking the price and details for her, she has decided to go with it. And I can pay for her maid's ticket by credit card too before end this week.
It's really silly, isn't it? But I feel such warmth and love in my heart, as our Lord is so caring! Even for little things like this! And He provides, through His own way. I never need to worry about my needs as He'd use His miraculous ways to provide, here and there, large sum or small. We never lack of supply.
Oh my Lord, you're so sweet! Thanks so much for your gift - it's not the spending or money or even supply, but Your Love that counts! Thank you Lord!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Sharing at CCF Today
Praise our Lord! Thank Him so much for giving me this chance to share the wonderful things He has done in our lives in the past 2 years at CCF today. Well, basically it's the sharing from my 2006 Review - part 2.
I just want to say thanks to our Lord once again, for I truly know He was there with us.
I remember how the Holy Spirit has given me this prayer to end that sharing session:
I just want to say thanks to our Lord once again, for I truly know He was there with us.
I remember how the Holy Spirit has given me this prayer to end that sharing session:
Lord, we thank you, for what we have prayed for that you have given us, and not given us.Yes, Lord. Indeed. May your will be done. Amen.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
2006 Review - Part 1
It's interesting that I have started to do a mental "annual review" as early as November 2006 this year.
This is a really fruitful year. And I think I can say that from nearly all aspects in my life, I have seen growth, development, improvement, enrichment, and enhancement:
Spiritually
- The "Cleansing Stream Course" was such a blessing! It's hard to believe that Wesley and I just attended this course in 1Q 2006! We have learned so much and grown so much and been healed so much from the teaching and truth of this course. And there's such sweet sweet feeling with my Lord, building up during the term of the course that I really treasure.
- It's also great for me to take part in the "Cleansing Stream Course" again in the Autumn season as a helper. It's great to grow and to be able to help others experience the same great things from this course from our Lord.
- Also not to forget is of course our trip to Kaohsiung to attend the Agape Conference. As Claudia said, it's really like in a "spiritual spa" and get soaked up in the sweetness in our Lord in those few days.
- And there was so much more, e.g. the Alpha courses. It's certainly a big change from the "spiritual drought" I experienced in the 2nd half of 2005.
Professionally
- There has been such big change at work! In 2005 I just started in this new post in Marketing department. I didn't do well in 2005 - feeling lost, feeling bad, feeling feared. There can be no other reason but that God has changed me: 2006 was such a different year and I became such a different person at work! Courage and wisdom God bestow to me, and that confidence and "at ease" came back to me when dealing with all sorts of challenges at work.
- 2006 was indeed a challenging year, and a very important one for me too.
- The biggest thing for me and my team is definitely the activities around the 60th Anniversary. Through the work on the Skyshow, I did not only experience the fulfillment and the passion for work. But more importantly, I know I can bless other people's life through my work! through my paid job! through my vocation! I did not know why but I still remember clearly, the first thing I did when I went to Festival Walk the venue of our first Skyshow to do site inspection, I was not doing anything first but to walk around the place and pray - I pray that God will bless these many people who were then working on the display. I pray that God would bless all those people who would come to see this Skyshow. I pray that God would bless the many many colleagues, business partners, or people that I work with through this project. How it is to be done, I don't know! I could only thank the Holy Spirit for putting such thought in my heart and moved me to pray so. And I have such faith that God has indeed blessed us so.
- Even stronger the feeling came from the work on the 60th Anniversary Gala Party. By any sense it is still a big big big project. Indeed it was bigger than any project I have undertaken before. Again, I did not know how but starting quite early in the project I have already prayed to our Lord: oh Lord, make this a party that would glorify you. Oh Lord, make this a party that would glorify you. Even now, I still don't know how an anniversary party of a commercial, non-Christian company is related to the glory of our Lord. But somehow, it was the sacrifice I brought to my Lord, to dedicate this whole party to Him and him alone. This is my worship, the worship from my whole life: my mind, body and soul, my every waking moment and also the sleeping moment. And it's such a great great great experience to live in FULL, in HIM, at WORK! It's something I long for and I seek to relive that kind of life, i.e. to live in Jesus in Full every day every moment, again, for the rest of my life.
- One thing that's related is that CX has acquired KA this year, and it's a big thing for the company, even bigger than 60th Anniversary celebration or the launch of our new product. I think the important and the encouraging thing is that God has put down this vision of "40 Days of Prayer for the Company" in my heart for this announcement, and how the Holy Spirit has really made it happened, and how encouraging it is to have about 30 brothers and sisters committed to join this prayer action to uplift our company to Jesus Christ in that important period.
Wesley & I
- We have been together for so long and our relationship is so stable (in the good sense), especially after Wesley has also accepted Jesus Christ to his life about a year ago, I didn't think there could be anything else that happened. Obviously, I was wrong!
- It was really a shock when I first received that "Confession" email from Wesley. But I really praise our Lord, PRAISE OUR LORD! For He has prepared more love even for case like this! And I'm so grateful, so grateful, that we came out to know each other more, and to love each other even more. It's so great to grow and walk our lives, together.
Friends
- The one I must mention is Angela. I am just so, so, so happy for her! I think 2006 may mean even more to her for all those things happened in her life. And seeing the changes in her, it felt like it's happening in my own life, too! Can't really express how happy I am. Can only end with "Praise our Lord" again!
Family
- I still think I haven't done enough with and for my family. I'm glad that at least I've written my parents a letter to express my love, but still, it's too small a step - I haven't even written the second letter yet! I do hope that in 2007 we'll have some more chance to spend time together. More importantly, I do hope that they would finally get to know Jesus Christ and invite HIM to be their own personal saviour.
- On the other hand, I really thank God for my parents-in-law. It was not easy time for the past 2 years for us. It was hard for us to go through Wes' Dad's stroke and all the recovery process in 2005, but it was even more challenging when complications arisen again this year, and that an originally simple operation (that's what we thought) would turn out to be another 4 months in and out of hospital, and that Wes' Dad's ability to eat, to talk or to walk was further weakened. We don't know why and we may never know, we can only continue to learn to look up to and rely on Jesus Christ our Lord our God.
It really was a fruitful year, and I keep counting and keep counting and keep counting our blessings - our Lord really loves me! And He has given us so much! I'm most grateful.
If there is anything missing, it would be it.
When it was November 2006, I had this quiet whisper to my Lord - it's not even a "formal prayer", it's just my whisper: "Oh my Lord, if you would give our family a baby too in 2006, then it's really too amazing and 2006 would be such a very special year, with all the things already took place... ...".
For in the past 20 months, we have been trying but I just didn't conceive.
This is a really fruitful year. And I think I can say that from nearly all aspects in my life, I have seen growth, development, improvement, enrichment, and enhancement:
Spiritually
- The "Cleansing Stream Course" was such a blessing! It's hard to believe that Wesley and I just attended this course in 1Q 2006! We have learned so much and grown so much and been healed so much from the teaching and truth of this course. And there's such sweet sweet feeling with my Lord, building up during the term of the course that I really treasure.
- It's also great for me to take part in the "Cleansing Stream Course" again in the Autumn season as a helper. It's great to grow and to be able to help others experience the same great things from this course from our Lord.
- Also not to forget is of course our trip to Kaohsiung to attend the Agape Conference. As Claudia said, it's really like in a "spiritual spa" and get soaked up in the sweetness in our Lord in those few days.
- And there was so much more, e.g. the Alpha courses. It's certainly a big change from the "spiritual drought" I experienced in the 2nd half of 2005.
Professionally
- There has been such big change at work! In 2005 I just started in this new post in Marketing department. I didn't do well in 2005 - feeling lost, feeling bad, feeling feared. There can be no other reason but that God has changed me: 2006 was such a different year and I became such a different person at work! Courage and wisdom God bestow to me, and that confidence and "at ease" came back to me when dealing with all sorts of challenges at work.
- 2006 was indeed a challenging year, and a very important one for me too.
- The biggest thing for me and my team is definitely the activities around the 60th Anniversary. Through the work on the Skyshow, I did not only experience the fulfillment and the passion for work. But more importantly, I know I can bless other people's life through my work! through my paid job! through my vocation! I did not know why but I still remember clearly, the first thing I did when I went to Festival Walk the venue of our first Skyshow to do site inspection, I was not doing anything first but to walk around the place and pray - I pray that God will bless these many people who were then working on the display. I pray that God would bless all those people who would come to see this Skyshow. I pray that God would bless the many many colleagues, business partners, or people that I work with through this project. How it is to be done, I don't know! I could only thank the Holy Spirit for putting such thought in my heart and moved me to pray so. And I have such faith that God has indeed blessed us so.
- Even stronger the feeling came from the work on the 60th Anniversary Gala Party. By any sense it is still a big big big project. Indeed it was bigger than any project I have undertaken before. Again, I did not know how but starting quite early in the project I have already prayed to our Lord: oh Lord, make this a party that would glorify you. Oh Lord, make this a party that would glorify you. Even now, I still don't know how an anniversary party of a commercial, non-Christian company is related to the glory of our Lord. But somehow, it was the sacrifice I brought to my Lord, to dedicate this whole party to Him and him alone. This is my worship, the worship from my whole life: my mind, body and soul, my every waking moment and also the sleeping moment. And it's such a great great great experience to live in FULL, in HIM, at WORK! It's something I long for and I seek to relive that kind of life, i.e. to live in Jesus in Full every day every moment, again, for the rest of my life.
- One thing that's related is that CX has acquired KA this year, and it's a big thing for the company, even bigger than 60th Anniversary celebration or the launch of our new product. I think the important and the encouraging thing is that God has put down this vision of "40 Days of Prayer for the Company" in my heart for this announcement, and how the Holy Spirit has really made it happened, and how encouraging it is to have about 30 brothers and sisters committed to join this prayer action to uplift our company to Jesus Christ in that important period.
Wesley & I
- We have been together for so long and our relationship is so stable (in the good sense), especially after Wesley has also accepted Jesus Christ to his life about a year ago, I didn't think there could be anything else that happened. Obviously, I was wrong!
- It was really a shock when I first received that "Confession" email from Wesley. But I really praise our Lord, PRAISE OUR LORD! For He has prepared more love even for case like this! And I'm so grateful, so grateful, that we came out to know each other more, and to love each other even more. It's so great to grow and walk our lives, together.
Friends
- The one I must mention is Angela. I am just so, so, so happy for her! I think 2006 may mean even more to her for all those things happened in her life. And seeing the changes in her, it felt like it's happening in my own life, too! Can't really express how happy I am. Can only end with "Praise our Lord" again!
Family
- I still think I haven't done enough with and for my family. I'm glad that at least I've written my parents a letter to express my love, but still, it's too small a step - I haven't even written the second letter yet! I do hope that in 2007 we'll have some more chance to spend time together. More importantly, I do hope that they would finally get to know Jesus Christ and invite HIM to be their own personal saviour.
- On the other hand, I really thank God for my parents-in-law. It was not easy time for the past 2 years for us. It was hard for us to go through Wes' Dad's stroke and all the recovery process in 2005, but it was even more challenging when complications arisen again this year, and that an originally simple operation (that's what we thought) would turn out to be another 4 months in and out of hospital, and that Wes' Dad's ability to eat, to talk or to walk was further weakened. We don't know why and we may never know, we can only continue to learn to look up to and rely on Jesus Christ our Lord our God.
It really was a fruitful year, and I keep counting and keep counting and keep counting our blessings - our Lord really loves me! And He has given us so much! I'm most grateful.
If there is anything missing, it would be it.
When it was November 2006, I had this quiet whisper to my Lord - it's not even a "formal prayer", it's just my whisper: "Oh my Lord, if you would give our family a baby too in 2006, then it's really too amazing and 2006 would be such a very special year, with all the things already took place... ...".
For in the past 20 months, we have been trying but I just didn't conceive.
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