Dear Sum Sum, Lok Lok,
Is it fair to say it's a year full of big changes? I guess that's true not only for me, but for our whole family as well: Lok Lok started in new school, papa had a new portfolio at work and faced the greatest challenge in his career so far, we moved to a new church, grand pa moved into elderly home, grand ma now comes over for dinner every night, auntie Gloria and uncle Robert and Chloe have moved out, and last but not least me in my new job position as well.
That's actually quit a lot! No wonder I myself am overwhelmed, too.
First I want to say sorry: because of the new post I got last year and also the new post I got this year, work has been much busier than before and has kept me away from you more than before, and way more than I want. Thanks for still being sticky with mamma so much, and telling me how much you miss me whenever I am away, on OT or DT. You don't know how much it meant to me to be able to hear your voice or see your face over Skype when I can't be with you. Not to mention the love and energy you bestowed on me when I did get back home.
Though work has been so tough and stressed and busy, I am really grateful for the change this year. No, it's really not that much about the promotion or money or status or benefits, though they are all good. It's really about the new challenge, horizon, scope, and responsibility at work that excites me. Most important of all, I feel I could do so much more for our Lord in this new position: that I can influence more people, that my role is increasingly about people themselves, their well being and development. It's just a natural fit with what I think I could do for our Lord at workplace! And ultimately, I know my goal is to do it so well, and so different from how others have done it in the worldly way, that people would recognize the difference and give praise to God, and ultimately wanting to get to know Jesus because they want this different, true life in them as well.
I traced back to the discussion between mamma and papa back at the beginning of the year. We had such serious debate and discussion at that time about my career path and career choice. Out of love for papa and to follow Bible's teaching to submit to husband, I stayed on as a full time working mom. And I felt that was the right thing to do, and was probably pleasing to God, too! I gladly took that on as our joint decision as the best thing to do for the whole family. I would really like to think that the promotion was God's way of telling me I have made the right decision about following Bible and submitting to papa, and now He entrusted me with more 'treasure' I.e. a bigger team at work that I could shepherd for Him.
The second biggest change is certainly our attending a new church. It was a huge decision and it took papa mamma months to ponder and pray. Detailed thoughts were captured in papa's blog posts. And behind this move was a more fundamental change which was not so obvious: I.e. our awareness and learning in reformed theology. With God's grace, I am now back on track with my hunger for God's Word and God Himself. To go to church, to read Bible, to read other books on reformed theology, to get to know Him more, day by day. And this is extremely important for papa and mamma that you two would grow up in a church that teaches correct concept and truth from Bible. And I am thankful that our Lord has led us to the right place.
I am stressed and exhausted. But at the same time I am hopeful and excited. I am eagerly looking forward to 2012, pray to God that we would all grow further in Him together: settling down at the new church, settling down at my new post, learning to pray more and for us to learn and live that 'God has the best plan for me' lesson together for Sum Sum's primary school arrangement.
Let's grow together. Would you?
Love you always,
Mamma.
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